tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27709132184152367382024-03-13T07:08:19.332+08:00un bébéNO NEED TO RUN WITHOUT KNOWING THE REASON
afifahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00769907212439354980noreply@blogger.comBlogger398125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2770913218415236738.post-88829943127073123192022-10-20T08:43:00.003+08:002022-12-05T22:10:31.285+08:00Living Late Twenties : 30 Questions Before Turning 30<p>I found this question on <a href="https://www.elitedaily.com/life/30-questions-able-answer-30/963183" target="_blank">Elite Daily</a>. If you guys feel like doing it as well, let me know so I can read it as well. I don't feel like ranting so let's just get straight into it.</p><p><br /></p><blockquote><blockquote><p><b>What am I looking for in a partner?</b></p></blockquote></blockquote><p> </p><blockquote><p>I have told this before that during my time in Kuantan, I come to an understanding about myself that I do have certain physical attributes that draw me in. Apart from that, I'm looking for someone who can match my wit, and ways of thinking but most importantly, someone that I can enjoy a conversation with. This has led me to a certain type of personality and educational background too. I'm good at matching people's energy which indirectly makes me a people pleaser. So, on the surface, it might look like we get along well and don't get the wrong impression - we really do get along but I'm looking for someone that can bring out my other sides and someone that I can enjoy a good banter #lol</p></blockquote><p> </p><blockquote><blockquote><p><b>Is this the person I want to spend my life with?</b></p></blockquote></blockquote><p><br /></p><blockquote style="border: none; margin: 0px 0px 0px 40px; padding: 0px;"><p style="text-align: left;">I have been single for years so we can skip this questions</p></blockquote><p><b><br /></b></p><blockquote><blockquote><p><b>What will make me happy?</b></p></blockquote></blockquote><p><br /></p><blockquote style="border: none; margin: 0px 0px 0px 40px; padding: 0px;"><p style="text-align: left;">The first thing that come to my mind is traveling. You see, I enjoy traveling, but I'm not an avid person for one. Really not the wanderlust vibe kind of people that travel for experience and culture and need to go around the world etc. I really only look at it as a way of spending your holiday. I'm also not one that want to spend energy into planning long trips too but I love doing short trips. It's less demanding and easily executable. This is something rather new that I come to understand about myself. I like the feeling of being in an alternate life and just absorb it all. It feels like a break for the mundane of life and give a chance for me to clear out my head. It's not necessarily being clearing out the stress but more on giving myself a chance to see things in different perspective. Let's hope for more travel!</p></blockquote><p> </p><p><br /></p><p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj80IUaLJAcF0VBpuH03tfKrBhfihaHVyrFVWH9XdnhcndqR8OTqqhKJA4oxFV6j5wYmurn3mcJxFFJp_xzFb7rp1utudOKexm9gndeBAKIped20W-8tM8Vsi8h85rHJgl_eoLzAxQiM9Wb5VVhfeTRIsHdzkpWHPH7sQ-y8yZE8_tlY4LK3SVUnZxoyA/s4608/pexels-makjp-11952921.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4608" data-original-width="3072" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj80IUaLJAcF0VBpuH03tfKrBhfihaHVyrFVWH9XdnhcndqR8OTqqhKJA4oxFV6j5wYmurn3mcJxFFJp_xzFb7rp1utudOKexm9gndeBAKIped20W-8tM8Vsi8h85rHJgl_eoLzAxQiM9Wb5VVhfeTRIsHdzkpWHPH7sQ-y8yZE8_tlY4LK3SVUnZxoyA/w426-h640/pexels-makjp-11952921.jpg" width="426" /></a></div><br /> <p></p><blockquote style="border: none; margin: 0px 0px 0px 40px; padding: 0px;"><p style="text-align: left;"> </p></blockquote><blockquote style="border: none; margin: 0px 0px 0px 40px; padding: 0px;"><blockquote><p style="text-align: left;"><b> Is this worth it?</b></p></blockquote></blockquote><p><br /></p><blockquote style="border: none; margin: 0px 0px 0px 40px; padding: 0px;"><p style="text-align: left;">For now, my work is the only thing that got me thinking the worthness of it all. Is this really worth to spend my entire life for. I'm barely a year into this new environment of working that is really ideal for my growth but I'm starting to think how this might not be it entirely. It might not be someone that I want to see myself being in the future. I need to do a total career change if I really pressed on this further. I'm giving myself a few months to think this through first and the necessary life adjustment I might need to venture if I really do want a career change.</p></blockquote><p><br /></p><blockquote><blockquote><p><b>Is this the job I want in 10 years?</b></p></blockquote></blockquote><p><br /></p><blockquote style="border: none; margin: 0px 0px 0px 40px; padding: 0px;"><p style="text-align: left;">Oh god, I don't expect that this question directly linked to my answer in the previous question. For now, I'm 60% sure that I don't want it in 10 years.</p></blockquote><p><br /></p><blockquote><blockquote><p><b>Do I miss him?</b></p></blockquote></blockquote><p><br /></p><blockquote style="border: none; margin: 0px 0px 0px 40px; padding: 0px;"><p style="text-align: left;">I don't know. There's red flags but again, we don't really know each other. I'm not sure if I actually miss him or the ideal of him or the good times we spend with each other itself.</p></blockquote><p><br /></p><blockquote style="border: none; margin: 0px 0px 0px 40px; padding: 0px;"><blockquote style="border: none; margin: 0px 0px 0px 40px; padding: 0px;"><p style="text-align: left;"><b>Do I have any real regrets?</b></p></blockquote></blockquote><p><br /></p><blockquote style="border: none; margin: 0px 0px 0px 40px; padding: 0px;"><p style="text-align: left;">I don't. One thing I always come to terms with whatever thing life throws at you is that - I always looking at it as a life experience. Simply a way to learn more about life and myself. Even if I did something regretful, I'll try my best to accept it and move on.</p></blockquote><p><br /></p><blockquote style="border: none; margin: 0px 0px 0px 40px; padding: 0px;"><blockquote style="border: none; margin: 0px 0px 0px 40px; padding: 0px;"><p style="text-align: left;"><b>What goals do I still have?</b></p></blockquote></blockquote><p><br /></p><blockquote style="border: none; margin: 0px 0px 0px 40px; padding: 0px;"><p style="text-align: left;">I don't have goals. I don't know what I want in life. I'm living one day at a time and only do necessary changes when I feel that the current on isn't what I want. I'm good at knowing what I don't want. However, pursuing writing a lot more seriously seems good.</p></blockquote><p><br /></p><blockquote><blockquote><p><b> What impact that I want to make?</b></p></blockquote></blockquote><p><br /></p><blockquote style="border: none; margin: 0px 0px 0px 40px; padding: 0px;"><p style="text-align: left;">I'm fairly a simple person. I don't feel like I need to make an impact. If my writing could give an impact to whoever reading it, that would a good kind of impact that I would greatly appreciate.</p></blockquote><p><br /></p><blockquote style="border: none; margin: 0px 0px 0px 40px; padding: 0px;"><blockquote style="border: none; margin: 0px 0px 0px 40px; padding: 0px;"><p style="text-align: left;"><b>Do I want a family? </b></p></blockquote></blockquote><blockquote style="border: none; margin: 0px 0px 0px 40px; padding: 0px;"><blockquote style="border: none; margin: 0px 0px 0px 40px; padding: 0px;"><p style="text-align: left;"> </p></blockquote></blockquote><blockquote style="border: none; margin: 0px 0px 0px 40px; padding: 0px;"><p style="text-align: left;"> A partner, yes. A family as in my own kids, I don't feel that those are meant for me.</p></blockquote><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgWkVLylCwlTKMlzp1w4v2u8lyAW_rS0OMJJFYtvFLm0c4j1rQmhZ9dBsujacwumre6CzWqX42y7OOmpvVMQU9rxpYY0QOPqDfu5M4FdBPR2IBiEPoTyxJVaJITSA6T7rxcoqT2I2rs1CHOVw568mPLY0jA9AuzsJF5f_pkvJLwfv7TWpphGCA4TB5yYg/s6646/pexels-anastasia-shuraeva-5566995.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="6646" data-original-width="4431" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgWkVLylCwlTKMlzp1w4v2u8lyAW_rS0OMJJFYtvFLm0c4j1rQmhZ9dBsujacwumre6CzWqX42y7OOmpvVMQU9rxpYY0QOPqDfu5M4FdBPR2IBiEPoTyxJVaJITSA6T7rxcoqT2I2rs1CHOVw568mPLY0jA9AuzsJF5f_pkvJLwfv7TWpphGCA4TB5yYg/s320/pexels-anastasia-shuraeva-5566995.jpg" width="213" /></a> <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhMzxXGGe4GBHzuIj32nf5YZUBAWL5G5h7D5IZ7FLnk_hT9ejQTOMyElVv8n4rOeceYw0YXVpJG9zIG0DjY1AXI5OE3JEK-8Ozm4fjInoel_SqegsfgBlLkpvGQd0xbygtHaTyT0COil6LODoMHo3mgkjcPKYRCcxKUteT_8GcttZgv0KDMBGQ4LhGN_w/s6000/pexels-norma-mortenson-7302212.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="6000" data-original-width="4000" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhMzxXGGe4GBHzuIj32nf5YZUBAWL5G5h7D5IZ7FLnk_hT9ejQTOMyElVv8n4rOeceYw0YXVpJG9zIG0DjY1AXI5OE3JEK-8Ozm4fjInoel_SqegsfgBlLkpvGQd0xbygtHaTyT0COil6LODoMHo3mgkjcPKYRCcxKUteT_8GcttZgv0KDMBGQ4LhGN_w/s320/pexels-norma-mortenson-7302212.jpg" width="213" /></a></div><br /> <p></p><p><br /></p><blockquote><blockquote><p><b>Are my friends really my friends?</b></p></blockquote></blockquote><p><br /></p><blockquote style="border: none; margin: 0px 0px 0px 40px; padding: 0px;"><p style="text-align: left;"><span>Being 29, I think I'm settled with the few friends I have. That I can trust wholeheartedly. Yes, they really are my friends.</span></p></blockquote><p><br /></p><blockquote><blockquote><p><b>Am I a good friend?</b></p></blockquote></blockquote><p><br /></p><blockquote style="border: none; margin: 0px 0px 0px 40px; padding: 0px;"><p style="text-align: left;">I can't vouch for myself for sure but I would be more than willing to do anything in my power to help my friends.</p></blockquote><p><br /></p><blockquote><blockquote><p><b>Is this the city that I want to live in?</b></p></blockquote></blockquote><p><br /></p><blockquote style="border: none; margin: 0px 0px 0px 40px; padding: 0px;"><p style="text-align: left;">I have never been able to see myself living here back home. However for a year or two from now, I feel like I need to be here for my siblings and it feel the most right thing to do. I've been thinking about how I love living in Kuantan. I used to think that such cities can be a good place to live in and indeed it is. The six hours journey really isn't it though. Probably would be a better choice once the trains are ready?</p></blockquote><p><b><br /></b></p><blockquote><blockquote><p><b> When was the happiest time of your life?</b></p></blockquote></blockquote><p><br /></p><blockquote style="border: none; margin: 0px 0px 0px 40px; padding: 0px;"><p style="text-align: left;">There are multiple occasions that makes me feel happy but I like to think of this question to be one defining and monumental occasion which I don't have yet. Maybe there'll be one for me in the future.</p></blockquote><p><br /></p><blockquote><blockquote><p><b> Am I a good daughter?</b></p></blockquote></blockquote><p><br /></p><blockquote style="border: none; margin: 0px 0px 0px 40px; padding: 0px;"><p style="text-align: left;">Again, I can't vouch for myself plus my father isn't really one that talks out stuff. My family is everything for me and for that I will do anything in my power to make them happy.</p></blockquote><p><br /></p><blockquote style="border: none; margin: 0px 0px 0px 40px; padding: 0px;"><blockquote><p style="text-align: left;"><b> Am I a good person?</b></p></blockquote></blockquote><p><br /></p><blockquote style="border: none; margin: 0px 0px 0px 40px; padding: 0px;"><p style="text-align: left;">I get to interact with lot of people working in retail and being in pharmacy especially means people who are in need of help. It's basically my daily basis. I always reflect myself after assisting a customer. Did I really helped them out? Did I really listen to them? Was there any bias involved? There's pressure of needing to do sales, I'm not going to deny that but I always hope that I really, really helped out. That my suggestions are only those that benefits and that I didn't give false expectations. I hope I'm a good person to them.</p></blockquote><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjK_6-d5PHT821LlJAoe1ws_2XP4TvEGAOzVH_g7QiCEHR-tNMdme4nPbavl51ldCahX4LbwIa8Hpi45BpFowhB-mQTCEBYB5IspgIixKWANvzaN1aErO3sqvIr2Pmn5oIRNrIPzQayphnwUKrf34zU3tH0-_mIzymQhqaAmcU2lBy7fo3DNrXt2mzHJw/s600/pexels-photo-2852438.jpeg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="600" data-original-width="600" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjK_6-d5PHT821LlJAoe1ws_2XP4TvEGAOzVH_g7QiCEHR-tNMdme4nPbavl51ldCahX4LbwIa8Hpi45BpFowhB-mQTCEBYB5IspgIixKWANvzaN1aErO3sqvIr2Pmn5oIRNrIPzQayphnwUKrf34zU3tH0-_mIzymQhqaAmcU2lBy7fo3DNrXt2mzHJw/w640-h640/pexels-photo-2852438.jpeg" width="640" /></a></div><br /> <p></p><p><br /></p><blockquote><blockquote><p><b>Do I care what people think of me?</b></p></blockquote></blockquote><p><br /></p><blockquote style="border: none; margin: 0px 0px 0px 40px; padding: 0px;"><p style="text-align: left;">As of at this moment, I care too much. I let some things get to me too easily and too much too. Not all, just some. I'm not one to care too much actually so for me to be this bothered just exhaust me. I thought I got a good grip of myself at 29 years old but it seems new environment warrant me the chances to still improve this part of myself.</p></blockquote><p><br /></p><blockquote><blockquote><p><b>Should I feel guilty about cutting someone off?</b></p></blockquote></blockquote><p><br /></p><blockquote style="border: none; margin: 0px 0px 0px 40px; padding: 0px;"><p style="text-align: left;">I would say that I don't open up much to people and for the past few years of my life, having to live alone, I become so comfortable with myself. I don't necessarily feel the need to always be with peoples. I'm content with the few friends I have and the occasional meeting up with old friend or new people. It also means that I just don't feel the need to be connected with people I don't enjoy their company. It's kinda natural now. I don't feel guilty whatsoever. It is what it is.</p></blockquote><p><b><br /></b></p><blockquote><blockquote><p><b>Are my friends the friends I want for life?</b></p></blockquote></blockquote><p><br /></p><blockquote style="border: none; margin: 0px 0px 0px 40px; padding: 0px;"><p style="text-align: left;">Yes. See, here's the thing. Peoples around my age usually has a partner or has already married. It's just imposibble to stay connected to them as they also have other people they need to commit too. What this also means is that it's not easy to build a new friendship too so I don't see the possibilities of making and investing new frienships in the future. So, there's that. I'm grateful that the ones I have now are great but that's quite a POV now doesn't it?</p></blockquote><p><br /></p><blockquote><blockquote><p><b>Do people respect me?</b></p></blockquote></blockquote><p><br /></p><blockquote style="border: none; margin: 0px 0px 0px 40px; padding: 0px;"><p style="text-align: left;">At first, I thought this is a stupid question. How can you know if a person respects you? I think we can gauge something from how people response to you but that will be extirely up to how you perceive things. Then again, knowing this objectively could really help your growth too. </p></blockquote><p><br /></p><blockquote><blockquote><p> <b>Do I care enough about my body?</b></p></blockquote></blockquote><p><br /></p><blockquote style="border: none; margin: 0px 0px 0px 40px; padding: 0px;"><p style="text-align: left;">I'm not sure if this question was meant for body image or body health. However, it feels better to direct it to health. I've learned to be more concious about it but sadly, I'm not doing much to maintain it. I want to first improve my diet as in eat healthily and on time and like at least get 10k steps per day. I should really put more effort in this as I'm starting to feel I get tired easily and can hardly focus well too.</p></blockquote><p><br /></p><blockquote><blockquote><p> <b>Can I speak up for myself?</b></p></blockquote></blockquote><p><br /></p><blockquote style="border: none; margin: 0px 0px 0px 40px; padding: 0px;"><p style="text-align: left;">I can and sometimes it can be such little thing which I don't even realize it was me speaking up for myself. It could be that I feel "you're having a wrong assumptions about me" so now I'm "just clarifying". However, I wouldn't put myself as far as being "the change" in an uncooperative situations but to the very least, if the situations permits, I don't have a problem to walk out from it too.</p></blockquote><p><br /></p><blockquote><blockquote><p> <b>Is it too late to change?</b></p></blockquote></blockquote><p> </p><blockquote style="border: none; margin: 0px 0px 0px 40px; padding: 0px;"><p style="text-align: left;">Of course not. Especially if you put out effort, surely there's a mean for you to effectively adopt change.</p></blockquote><p><br /></p><blockquote><blockquote><p><b>Do I need someone?</b></p></blockquote></blockquote><p><br /></p><blockquote style="border: none; margin: 0px 0px 0px 40px; padding: 0px;"><p style="text-align: left;">I used to think I'm independent enought that I don't need anyone. I could simple wait. Now, however, still as independent, I feel like needing someone to be there for you is such an assuring thing to have in your day to day life. So yeah, I do need someone.</p></blockquote><p><br /></p><blockquote><blockquote><p><b>Do I need more?</b></p></blockquote></blockquote><p><br /></p><blockquote style="border: none; margin: 0px 0px 0px 40px; padding: 0px;"><p style="text-align: left;">The more thing I need in life right now is feeling accomplished and satisfied with whatever I'm doing. Be it at work or vacationing, I yearned to always make the most from it and it could differ from one situation to the other but there's a little "I've done it" achievement that I want. I'm still that "living life one day at a time kind of girl" but now I value those feeling of achievement more conciouslly.</p></blockquote><p> </p><blockquote><blockquote><p> <b>Am I ready to be an adult?</b></p></blockquote></blockquote><p><br /></p><blockquote style="border: none; margin: 0px 0px 0px 40px; padding: 0px;"><p style="text-align: left;">Yes I am. It might be only a partial of how the society perceive what an adult is, but on my own term, I am and seeking to always be a better version of it. I'm also learning my boundaries and with that I'm also learning to not be intimidated by others.</p></blockquote><p><br /></p><blockquote><blockquote><p><b>Have I challenged myself?</b></p></blockquote></blockquote><p><br /></p><blockquote style="border: none; margin: 0px 0px 0px 40px; padding: 0px;"><p style="text-align: left;">I have and I want to challenge myself more.</p></blockquote><p><br /></p><blockquote><blockquote><p><b>Will I found love?</b></p></blockquote></blockquote><p><br /></p><blockquote style="border: none; margin: 0px 0px 0px 40px; padding: 0px;"><p style="text-align: left;">I really don't know. As I told before, having someone feels good of course but I'm not obsessed over it. I would feel bad if I can't find anyone though but if it is meant to be, it will be.</p></blockquote><p><br /></p><blockquote><blockquote><p> <b>Do I have the life I wanted?</b></p></blockquote></blockquote><p><br /></p><blockquote style="border: none; margin: 0px 0px 0px 40px; padding: 0px;"><p style="text-align: left;">I don't know what kind of life I really wanted. There's some aspect in my life that I still want to venture around more and see how it takes me. For the past 5 years, I've been moving around few times and get to experince multiple workplace environment. If one thing I have learned is that 20's or even 30's can still be early to simply settles down. Life can offer so much more for you to really understand yourself better and knowing what kind of life you wanted.</p></blockquote><p><br /></p><blockquote><blockquote><p><b>Am I really 30?</b></p></blockquote></blockquote><p><br /></p><p><span> </span><span> I'm 29 actually but yes of course I am really turning 30. So what? </span></p><blockquote><blockquote><p><br /></p></blockquote></blockquote><p><br /></p><p> </p>afifahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00769907212439354980noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2770913218415236738.post-5983460649615237732022-10-05T22:15:00.001+08:002022-10-05T22:15:22.766+08:00Living Late Twenties : Of Not Living AloneI think I need to continue my "Being Present in Life Writing Challenge" so that I feel, you know, more present in life. The issue is however, it was initially catered to my life living alone. It kinda feels irrelevant now that I live with my family again. I have to admit that it does feel a whole lot better to have my family around whenever I'm having my slump mode. So to commemorate my current way of not living alone, I feel like I need to highlight whatever different things since. By since I mean two months. <div><br /></div><div>Wau, it has only been two months only lol.</div><div><br /></div><div>To start with, I've been doing lots of renovation-ish or sort of mending around the house now that I'm actually living here. For the past two months, I've been in bouts projects mainly focusing on our upstairs space. </div><div><br /></div><div>A few years back, my parents did a big renovation on our upstairs space which added three more rooms and a medium-sized common space. My siblings who were still living here hardly use the rooms save for my brothers whenever they are back. However, for the past few months, my siblings started to use these rooms and I am currently sharing one of the rooms with my sister too. We're a big family. As these spaces weren't used before, it wasn't really comfortably room-ish save for beds to sleep on. So I put myself in doing bits of renovation projects here and there to make the space of better use plus having the common area become more comfortable for us to leisure around or do work.</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiuSqi43Z5E_KRAkRnIrPCd77EFwGM7YSgNo8LgcZhJjXHIXSrOd6pAo9c_fW6ZoDbKPiVi2D90J177wgnY7UfOOOI_CsGJ9cgokuIVxhRAsy0WhJXsz4zlK0IFMij7aCT66NJA079nKXifdSii4avas_wBdESvvF46nSUNMbFFKdl702LhxYDFWxF2yw/s6720/pexels-karolina-grabowska-4219101.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="6720" data-original-width="4480" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiuSqi43Z5E_KRAkRnIrPCd77EFwGM7YSgNo8LgcZhJjXHIXSrOd6pAo9c_fW6ZoDbKPiVi2D90J177wgnY7UfOOOI_CsGJ9cgokuIVxhRAsy0WhJXsz4zlK0IFMij7aCT66NJA079nKXifdSii4avas_wBdESvvF46nSUNMbFFKdl702LhxYDFWxF2yw/w426-h640/pexels-karolina-grabowska-4219101.jpg" width="426" /></a></div><br /><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>This includes putting up more storage space stuff and making my sisters follow my rules of putting things away, repurposing or recycling old stuff whenever possible, having some new fixtures and I even went into hand sewing stuff too because I can't be bothered to actually learn how the sewing machine work. </div><div><br /></div><div>Don't worry, learning how to operate this sewing machine is on my to-do list. </div><div><br /></div><div>I've been repurposing an old dressing table, upcycling this old wooden sofa set, reorganizing our study tables, reorganizing the clothing cabinet, putting up curtains, putting up a more organized way of keeping the <i>tudung </i>and shawls, mending old pillows, mending the old iron board and I even set up timetables to make sure the laundry is done and the space were all swept. </div><div><br /></div><div>You can see mending and recycling stuff is quite a theme but I have been throwing out tonnes of old stuff too. Funnily, that also involves breaking up and packing things and having to throw them away in another dumpsite area as they won't be picked up by a garbage truck. I was actually amazed at the length I have achieved in mere two months because I am very much still working as usual. I do have my sisters who helped around though so that's a bonus.</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjj1cvkyCotMisdKAp1wIQeLu4wodqa03oKGMIbXUetsB-hNz229WXyO7oeby2rMNpxJTPRFvxWdYz7Mkx7A_Hn8TwxNSiLQ1Kln_Y9NAHrl6DG5SQ4VdxxZ63I4MQlpEHSY6jmWsYUzgfMcb-BKKaN3-1h_OQP0FGL92ulGfF7TxiWVx7N753yyh8P-g/s3000/pexels-polina-tankilevitch-4440647.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="3000" data-original-width="2000" height="400" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjj1cvkyCotMisdKAp1wIQeLu4wodqa03oKGMIbXUetsB-hNz229WXyO7oeby2rMNpxJTPRFvxWdYz7Mkx7A_Hn8TwxNSiLQ1Kln_Y9NAHrl6DG5SQ4VdxxZ63I4MQlpEHSY6jmWsYUzgfMcb-BKKaN3-1h_OQP0FGL92ulGfF7TxiWVx7N753yyh8P-g/w266-h400/pexels-polina-tankilevitch-4440647.jpg" width="266" /></a></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>Recently, as I am 90% done with having designated places for our stuff, I have also put in efforts to make my sisters adopt "clean as you go" behavior. These kids are lazy I told you. Nevertheless, it feels so satisfying seeing the space now all comfortable being used by them accordingly. </div><div><br /></div><div>We also have a small balcony upstairs. I wanted to turn it into a cozy small space to chill but since it is small, I can hardly fix much stuff there. I did come up with an idea to put fake grass there and have already bought it. So now we're waiting for it. We can probably just chill on the grass lol.</div><div><br /></div><div>I still need to do something about the common space and reorganize some more stuff. Also for some reason, the lamp in one of the rooms simply won't turn on and we don't know why. Probably needs to learn about that too. Just a few days ago, I put up some simple wall decorations in one of the rooms and I feel like I need just one more clothes hanging space and be done with it. The wall decorations need some more touch-ups to it but I don't have any idea at the moment. Probably a visit to the shop will help. </div><div><br /></div><div>In the meantime, I spent some time hanging out with my family and friend too. My sister had her graduation the other day and almost the whole family got Covid-19 the week after. I finally watch the latest Dr. Strange movie and even Thor: Love and Thunder during my quarantine. I was lethargic for the whole week so I barely do anything but watch either Netflix or Disney Hotstar. We went to Air Force The Movie too and it was good. I got to try some new eating place around here and tries to cook more during my days off. I've been watching more Criminal Minds nowadays and simply loving it. </div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi63SUDVVJtF3oNZ0zg42rPau_4GMpdYJK7bQfNGRtbC3yObyftxjiXqVk_NRWZqRKAgzoIMP4fiDVUhEH80x2l6EQuwA784peZ1KMXXqnH0Z0TWBSGEDHyKiJcwFiWx3Tketst-VXFrjANs8fZUy8Nh_aRYlhdr_VNYiQhPX652ZDzbyJRCRbtNsyeiA/s5184/pexels-johnmark-smith-2726370.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="3456" data-original-width="5184" height="426" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi63SUDVVJtF3oNZ0zg42rPau_4GMpdYJK7bQfNGRtbC3yObyftxjiXqVk_NRWZqRKAgzoIMP4fiDVUhEH80x2l6EQuwA784peZ1KMXXqnH0Z0TWBSGEDHyKiJcwFiWx3Tketst-VXFrjANs8fZUy8Nh_aRYlhdr_VNYiQhPX652ZDzbyJRCRbtNsyeiA/w640-h426/pexels-johnmark-smith-2726370.jpg" width="640" /></a></div><br /><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>Work has been a bit dull since it's a new shop. I was feeling demotivated too since I can't do many sales due to multiple reasons and it kinda put a toll on me. The most cliché thing is since it makes me more demotivated, whenever there is a customer, I went quickly assess even the slightest bit of rejection body language of the customer which is simply a depressing first mindset approach in retail. I need to keep on reminding myself to believe in my capabilities and to stop overanalyzing everything. It's tiring really.</div><div><br /></div><div>In the meantime, I'm also trying to use my free time to actually learn more about products. I think I need to be more conscious on setting daily goals to in order to make myself feels more accomplished. I also need to read more books in order to get the gears in my brain to move more too. I still didn't start any reading through though #lol.</div><div><br /></div><div>I'm still settling in. These are all new norms but I guess since I'm single and my friends are all far away, it's good to be in a close-knit circle back, especially my own family. I still miss my life in Kuantan. If I were to live alone, that life is ideal.</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div>afifahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00769907212439354980noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2770913218415236738.post-24608300020344883412022-08-13T19:28:00.003+08:002022-08-13T19:28:53.268+08:00Living Late Twenties - I'm Home<p style="text-align: justify;">My old mouse was being funny and then it suffer a bad fall so I was like "yay, new mouse shopping". I got it at MrDiy. It was a really nice mouse. Just the right size, comfortable to use and they did like this soft click. It was a random pretty mouse and then I thought that "Hey, maybe MrDiy got good mouses so I can just buy randomly there again for the new one"</p><p style="text-align: justify;"><br /></p><p style="text-align: justify;">I bought it. It didn't have that soft click. The click was rougher and generally annoying af. T________________T</p><p style="text-align: justify;"><br /></p><p style="text-align: justify;">I'm back home Perak! It's been almost two weeks now. I'm working from home at the moment as the outlet here hasn't opened yet. It got postponed due to a stock problem. So now I'm "simply" on my laptop responding to Whatsapp queries and trying my best not to be annoyed when people randomly request questionable medicines.</p><p style="text-align: justify;"><br /></p><p style="text-align: justify;"><br /></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh9EhSQ74SjlWJFpEzrrfxgRBl66ON3_EBmwLT0DGNq6dbhC-5rrWKcQKaWqaZCETEB94QqlZPTzPBFHknuwOve0YdEQhhEH30aaDlAqVHdfWWBOMmetoDCucNxKKMXyZSh_Z7wILCo3NYPLdRKtUxsaZehSsOxZb_FutyzyhNxa6PSxboSR8T3f43sVg/s5078/pexels-igor-starkov-930390.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="5078" data-original-width="3269" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh9EhSQ74SjlWJFpEzrrfxgRBl66ON3_EBmwLT0DGNq6dbhC-5rrWKcQKaWqaZCETEB94QqlZPTzPBFHknuwOve0YdEQhhEH30aaDlAqVHdfWWBOMmetoDCucNxKKMXyZSh_Z7wILCo3NYPLdRKtUxsaZehSsOxZb_FutyzyhNxa6PSxboSR8T3f43sVg/w412-h640/pexels-igor-starkov-930390.jpg" width="412" /></a></div><br /><p style="text-align: justify;"><br /></p><p style="text-align: justify;"><br /></p><p style="text-align: justify;">I finally got to meet my friends back in Sabak yesterday. We had sushi, watch a movie and also went to karaoke. It's good to meet them after months. I need to meet my other friend from the hospital. I'm missing my friend back in Kuantan though. They're just so much fun to be with. Hopefully, we can plan another trip together soon.</p><p style="text-align: justify;"><br /></p><p style="text-align: justify;">I'm having mixed feelings about coming to live back home after almost 5 years of not doing so but mostly, I'm just grateful that I'm now living with my siblings. I'm not living alone and that's kinda refreshing. My friend did ask me if I'm going to live out of the house. It's actually quite interesting that my friend thinks of such too as my sister also was asking if I'm going to buy a house here. </p><p style="text-align: justify;"><br /></p><p style="text-align: justify;">I do feel like I can consider buying a house but then I'm not entirely sure about living here forever. I was just thinking of going back home to be with my siblings. Probably for one or two years. It's kinda daunting to be thinking as such because my current work does feel like somewhere I could be for at least three years. </p><p style="text-align: justify;"><br /></p><p style="text-align: justify;">I miss Kuantan. It has a really good vibe for me to live a life there but then it's just too far away. Probably Ipoh would be a better choice. I feel like I can ask for a transfer there when the company has a store opened there. That's kinda a good idea to hang on to right?</p><p style="text-align: justify;"><br /></p><p style="text-align: justify;">I think I'm done with Tinder. All those that I got to know while in Kuantan will be just a memory now. Nobody really addresses how tiring those short-lived connections are. Not to mention that I have always felt sufficient to be with the same crowd that I know I can trust and be comfortable with so opening up like that feels even more draining. It is still kinda scary to feel like I might simply shut off ways for me to get to know new people but then I have my sister currently laughing for whatever reason while crowding on my feet and I can hear my brother playing gleefully with his toys while taking a bath so I guess I'm good for now.</p><p style="text-align: justify;"><br /></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjWnP5eqahj0WweTPgjSWQu1zQqitCFXU0rFe4ExxwfWJOrzfB7vKenOQe4ieWiucOqbWKKsZEDxT3siLnnzCA1LRt3JstiujCeQ6tRoIWA3VCzYFTEWfkE1_tm08ykIv-Ety0URqa-gL_lgmZxsq5lHrijUgU2ptMqhL7LHxhfQ9dWsizxMPHIFI2H6w/s3143/pexels-p%C4%83tra%C8%99cu-bianca-6563949.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1894" data-original-width="3143" height="193" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjWnP5eqahj0WweTPgjSWQu1zQqitCFXU0rFe4ExxwfWJOrzfB7vKenOQe4ieWiucOqbWKKsZEDxT3siLnnzCA1LRt3JstiujCeQ6tRoIWA3VCzYFTEWfkE1_tm08ykIv-Ety0URqa-gL_lgmZxsq5lHrijUgU2ptMqhL7LHxhfQ9dWsizxMPHIFI2H6w/w320-h193/pexels-p%C4%83tra%C8%99cu-bianca-6563949.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><p style="text-align: justify;"><br /></p><p style="text-align: justify;">This also means I can continue my journey to watch as many horror movies as I can. We finished Sandman the other day. I thought it was a horror but turns out it was supernatural-ish but it was still so good so we were bummed that there's no news of a second season.</p><p style="text-align: justify;"><br /></p><p style="text-align: justify;">Last but not least I've changed my template! It was loading so slowly before and the old template has been used for quite some time. I didn't actually expect changing to a new template can actually help it loads faster but it did so yay!</p><p style="text-align: justify;"><br /></p><p style="text-align: justify;"><br /></p>afifahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00769907212439354980noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2770913218415236738.post-17019277236388681042022-06-28T16:01:00.002+08:002022-06-28T16:01:33.463+08:00Tinder, Work and Anxiety - A Month In WritingIt's 10.22pm, 4/6/2022. I've been craving to write but I can't seem to find enough energy to simply sit with myself and focus. So, although I decided to sleep five minutes ago, I changed my mind and write this on my phone. We'll see how many days it will need to finish.<div><br /></div><div>First, Tinder. I told here before that I wanted to try dating. But oh my god I can't do this online chatting at all. Plus, I would need people to put heights because HEIGHTS MATTER. I'm sorry that I am biologically indoctrinated to not be attracted to men that are short. You can reject me for not having fair skin and not being skinny, I am totally okay with that.</div><div><br /></div><div>Long story short, there's no one interesting enough save for this one guy. This guy actually makes me realize that I really do have a type. I thought it was just a simple preference, but no, this is a lifestyle choice indeed. It's fun and kind of eye-opening that now I am able to realize this part of me. Who would have thought some random guy so far away from where I am from that I met randomly on Tinder got me to understand myself more and even give me the chance to feel more feelings. </div><div><br /></div><div>He ghosted me though. I think? We do have this notion that I am not seeking anything serious and that I am not staying here for long. I hope he wasn't an asshole or something because that would be a bummer. But still, thanks for the experience.</div><div><br /></div><div>I wonder if I can meet this kind of guy again. I don't think I'm doing Tinder anymore. I got bored too easily and I think the very fact that we actually meet right away is why I don't feel like simply bailing him. </div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjq8Tdejc2Ca7c6DVQNVtk8NLtOqudcCBn0BMhzTfckiBrFjWGlfjVAUg-uzEJVLSIHUmdvX0xw_79w5VoDGaTyE2HCVy4GTSRZepRcNWfvhQCCZN8s3vck5faYaz9Z9wpBKluT2v9juo7fzdeWdIaMAGVBcYEDEB4XLBwBIyt6uNeGiVOe2ZOzHzSS7A/s6000/pexels-irina-iriser-5396099.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="6000" data-original-width="4000" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjq8Tdejc2Ca7c6DVQNVtk8NLtOqudcCBn0BMhzTfckiBrFjWGlfjVAUg-uzEJVLSIHUmdvX0xw_79w5VoDGaTyE2HCVy4GTSRZepRcNWfvhQCCZN8s3vck5faYaz9Z9wpBKluT2v9juo7fzdeWdIaMAGVBcYEDEB4XLBwBIyt6uNeGiVOe2ZOzHzSS7A/w426-h640/pexels-irina-iriser-5396099.jpg" width="426" /></a></div><br /><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>Oh my god, is this my karma because I ghosted people on Tinder? But everyone ghosted everyone on Tinder though.</div><div><br /></div><div>Anyway. There's that. We're back to all man is boring and a drab and I'll die alone with my own money living in some ✨fancy✨ old folks home. </div><div><br /></div><div>I wanted this Tinder story to sound more romantic than this. I think I'll write two or three more poems and calls it a closure.</div><div><br /></div><div>(fast forward to 21.6.2022)</div><div><br /></div><div>He still ghosted me.</div><div><br /></div><div>Anyway, we went for that sleeper train trip! Since we went back the next day, we spent the time exploring Kelantan. It was a short trip but we got to do so many things and if anyone asks, the sea at Terengganu is bluer and prettier than the ones at Kelantan 🌊🌊🌊</div><div><br /></div><div>It was my friends here that did the itinerary and we got to eat so much good food. That is truly the biggest highlight since we were all so bored with the daily Foodpanda orders for lunch.</div><div><br /></div><div>Back to the matter at hand - work.</div><div><br /></div><div>I finished the assessments with the outlet's manager earlier this month and now am waiting for the oral assessment with the HR people. This is presumably the hardest part and I only texted HR today to ask when will it be done since there's no news up whatsoever for three weeks already 🥲🥲🥲</div><div><br /></div><div>I like lah writing on my phone, I can put emojis here.</div><div><br /></div><div>I am doing so much better at work now. I no longer feel so depressingly gloomy as I used to when going to work plus the timetable is so much more sensible now since there are new staffs now. I can actually sing on my way to work and that speaks volumes.</div><div><br /></div><div>Getting confirmation faster would be a whole lot better of course. </div><div><br /></div><div>I still needed to learn more. But having this better headspace helps a lot in learning more efficiently. I'm trying to be more proactive but still am able to make more sales. It's a tricky balancing technique for me but I think this will help me to gain more knowledge, experience and quick thinking too. </div><div><br /></div><div>Having said this, my anxiety is considerably much better now. It is almost a freedom. I also try to dress better of my own accord as those help me feel more confident = less anxious. I do need to declutter my vanity table as those are really getting on my nerve now but I just don't have the time since I either want to sleep the tiredness away or there's a new cafe to go to.</div><div><br /></div><div>We went to lots of cool and beautiful cafes around Kuantan. Since we went during weekdays, there isn't much crowd which makes the experience even more better. The food is so damn good too. I have the smoothest latte and I even tries to drink matcha. </div><div><br /></div><div>I might make some peoples mad but matcha really be another fancy way of drinking milk. I think I like the umami one's better.</div><div><br /></div><div>(28/6/2022)</div><div><br /></div><div>I've been having bouts of simply not wanting to do anything. I don't really feel stressed out or any of the usual anxiousness - I just don't feel like doing anything. It is most probably a burnout and it lasts for a few days sometimes. No matter what it is, I think it is most probably some hormonal thing, what I know for sure is that it is a vicious thing to be in since it means I'll close fewer sales and end up bummed up seeing my poor performance when the day ended. This month particularly was rather bad since I need to cater two outlets and were doing more non-sales kind of job. But I'm loving the more experience I've been getting doing these odd jobs.</div><div><br /></div><div>I met another Tinder guy the other day. It was a short meet-up since he was randomly in town and I had just finished my shift. I didn't use Tinder anymore, he was just some guy that I give my number to because I don't want to open Tinder anymore. He was those "open-minded" kind of guy. People really be abusing the word open-minded but we had an interesting conversation, especially the part about me disagreeing with things and that he constantly thinks I need to change my opinions on things. It was weird. He constantly thinks as if I can't think for myself and that he has the better look at things. I was having fun simply contradicting him but not enough to keep me wanting to continue the talk.</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhLK4Rgy9IG_auwTiwaHhULCTBORWyQzai0WA75pKRCKxLondo9DjWLcKFf1FeJ1x6wrq7XgGrbK6d6kOs-m_7bGUyQwkdr-OZRl0_1NybQmq3asfHj8OPveBW8bnqdQSxQYXdtN8RUmzuNdp_ENIy4zR4zT6zIFxYjxLzmE0OPNEfOF5UrLNYC3KJJ1A/s6000/pexels-yuliia-tretynychenko-12498581.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="6000" data-original-width="4000" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhLK4Rgy9IG_auwTiwaHhULCTBORWyQzai0WA75pKRCKxLondo9DjWLcKFf1FeJ1x6wrq7XgGrbK6d6kOs-m_7bGUyQwkdr-OZRl0_1NybQmq3asfHj8OPveBW8bnqdQSxQYXdtN8RUmzuNdp_ENIy4zR4zT6zIFxYjxLzmE0OPNEfOF5UrLNYC3KJJ1A/w426-h640/pexels-yuliia-tretynychenko-12498581.jpg" width="426" /></a></div><br /><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>I am rewatching Criminal Minds and I forgot how hot Hotchner can be. I keep everything on hold until I feel bored again watching Criminal Minds. I think I might stop until at least Gideon is out. I do however finishes Mugen Train Arc. I might continue Entertainment District Arc first after my Criminal Minds fever finishes</div><div><br /></div><div>Today is my day off. I want to read a fiction book but I feel like Murakami's one would be suited me better but it's hard to find one. I was thinking to go to a bookstore and if I can't find any then I will simply buy online. To my surprise, there isn't any fancy bookstore here in Kuantan and there's only Popular and it is in one of the less famous malls which means I am literally going into that mall for Popular.</div><div><br /></div><div>But we're going to the beach though so that's fun.</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div>afifahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00769907212439354980noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2770913218415236738.post-44129924643927862062022-04-23T11:28:00.002+08:002022-04-23T11:28:24.290+08:00Living Late Twenties - Random List (insecurities, fears, wants)<p><br /></p><p>I feel like my previous post sounded too positive for my liking that I can't bear to read it again and now for today, I'm going to be flat out depressing af.</p><p><br /></p><p>Yesterday I came to know about some unsettling things about the few toxic co-workers here. It was daunting especially since a few days before, I was having this second thought where I feel like I might be okay here but now I'm not so sure anymore. To think that I must first "survive" these months with these people who were supposed to "train" me has made me even more unnerving.</p><p><br /></p><p>I even decided to simply binge on caffeine to make days more tolerable <b>plus</b> here is some random list of insecurities, fears, and wants because reveling in this will be my coping mechanism from now onwards.</p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgEeKapvR6kCesmDaIKoHKidjV8sGgLHn6OyxqmQcVVpUcWWvVEnPVferIA2vl_LhWvg2RHv04DooRxEMfxggWl8dWyath0tPqzjZkle4awPAnYZOudH70jSvz_tAIIgOXgjAoXWZRsTE51OEGLjGSOxgNLE0e25vA5hI4IJEDDJHbR0DJLlzaU4e8sVw/s6000/pexels-yuliia-tretynychenko-11761084.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="6000" data-original-width="4000" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgEeKapvR6kCesmDaIKoHKidjV8sGgLHn6OyxqmQcVVpUcWWvVEnPVferIA2vl_LhWvg2RHv04DooRxEMfxggWl8dWyath0tPqzjZkle4awPAnYZOudH70jSvz_tAIIgOXgjAoXWZRsTE51OEGLjGSOxgNLE0e25vA5hI4IJEDDJHbR0DJLlzaU4e8sVw/w426-h640/pexels-yuliia-tretynychenko-11761084.jpg" width="426" /></a></div><br /><p><br /></p><p><b>insecurities</b></p><p><b><br /></b></p><p></p><ol style="text-align: left;"><li>The first thing that comes to mind is my English. I always know my English isn't fluent but I can still convey a decent conversation yet nowadays, I can't do shit. I think I'm going to simply talk in <i>bahasa melayu </i>or a simple broken English <i>je </i>cause I'm done!</li><li>My selling skills - I feel like I can do better at selling things and that I need to learn more but I simply <b>forget </b>everything that I learned it feels pointless to learn more now.</li><li>Everyone else is so good so now I am left feeling like an inadequate <i>potato.</i></li><li>I simply avoided these toxic staff who were actually the ones that are responsible to supervised my training here because they made me feel small and also they can be judgy so yeah.</li><li>All of these mean I put expectations on myself and failed so now it made me feel even worse.</li><li>Also, I keep on having these condescending thoughts that some people are looking down on me because I'm being naive with my way of thinking and this kinda invalidates my feeling. I hate second-guessing my own feeling. I mean if wanting to feel better seems too naive of a life choice and that somewhere in the future this will all be better - well, let me have my mistakes and mourn them over first.</li></ol><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>p/s - texting in whatsapp's work group at 12am is not okay.</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><b>fears</b></div><div><b><br /></b></div><div><ol style="text-align: left;"><li>I'm afraid if these are simply what it is and that if I can't cope here, I might not be able to elsewhere as well as this sector is going in this direction.</li><li>Am I able to manage this kind of outlet? That is what is expected from me and what I want to be able to do, but now it feels discouraging.</li><li>I learned a few new criteria that I need to secure when finding a new place so if I quit I'm afraid that I can't get a decent offer that will fit my newfound expectations.</li><li>I might need to change my career path - this isn't a fear per se, but needing to adjust to a new environment can be troublesome</li><li>That these sectors will be filled with more of these toxic peoples</li></ol><div><br /></div></div><div><br /></div><div><b>wants</b></div><div><b><br /></b></div><div><ol style="text-align: left;"><li>I think I'm finally ready to get into a relationship. I was trying Tinder for fun but I think I can get more serious. I don't put many expectations though. The few that I've matched aren't really worth pursuing. Although I do think my approach should've been better and more directed. It's kinda fun to venture into a new side of me as well,</li><li>I want to settle into my own style of selling more confidently and not be pressured per the company expectations which kinda feel like I am now simply a salesperson first, a pharmacist second.</li><li>I want to be able to have more energy and spirit to enjoy life as I used to -I probably need to start with sleeping and waking up early</li><li>I WANT MORE MORNING SHIFTS FFS.</li><li>I also want to eat better because this gastritis is annoying.</li><li>I want to be young foreverrrrrrrrrr.</li></ol><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>Selamat Berpuasa (I know I'm late) and Selamat Hari Raya (I know I'm early)</div></div><div><br /></div><p></p>afifahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00769907212439354980noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2770913218415236738.post-73282152847164052272022-02-28T10:52:00.000+08:002022-02-28T10:52:01.649+08:00Living Late Twenties - New Job, New Atmosphere and Far From Home<p>I need to spend some hours just to tweak my laptop back. I did some personalization on it as to make it more "aesthetically pleasing" but the system I used kinda annoying and I've been meaning to try new stuff but this has been going for months already but each time I'm at my laptop it was for work or like I'm watching something for the sake of my <i>mental health.</i></p><p><i><br /></i></p><p>I've just watched Eternals the other day, the plot was amazing but the storytelling part (I don't know what the exact term should be) could've been better. I am kinda done with MCU, mostly because there's a lot of them and I can't be bothered to keep up. Like I've only watched No Way Home because my siblings wanted to and we did like the whole gang going to the cinema and all. Not gonna lie, I love the surprise plot so so much.</p><p><br /></p><p>I love Eternals though. I think my brain is simply wired to love anything with Angelina Jolie in it. She's so prettyyyyy. I'm not a k-drama girl and watched only a handful of Korean movies plus some sneak when my sister was watching it but I know who Ma Dong Seok is and I adore him. So I was looking forward to seeing him in this too. It was great. I love it. But the end though T_________________T</p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEhgx3zvG-7Nl6NyrF1s29BsQNZyklFlXR8ykaZwFqGg8jL9_3OAx0KwK_ucG6qCkr8S70XV_aTRp93ZmCbnCtzlECH-jbJV7z683FySXOIL-5mYfqtjeY3UrAoe7Wj8FVE1c3xxVHQ_1Emj5x28NJVNk-TDV-86BxD9yrCj8ljgoIILp8WEXed24gqdFg=s4928" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="3264" data-original-width="4928" height="424" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEhgx3zvG-7Nl6NyrF1s29BsQNZyklFlXR8ykaZwFqGg8jL9_3OAx0KwK_ucG6qCkr8S70XV_aTRp93ZmCbnCtzlECH-jbJV7z683FySXOIL-5mYfqtjeY3UrAoe7Wj8FVE1c3xxVHQ_1Emj5x28NJVNk-TDV-86BxD9yrCj8ljgoIILp8WEXed24gqdFg=w640-h424" width="640" /></a></div><br /><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p>Ok, that's it, now let's get into the real reason why I'm writing today. I kinda have to write those first because I need to feel that I have other things in my life instead of just my new work that has been positively stressing the hell out of me. But in a good way. </p><p><br /></p><p>But stress is always stressing though.</p><p><br /></p><p>I've written before that I was doing my three-month notice and today marked my third week of training at my new place. It's a one-month training plus six months probation kind of deal and god I am not doing well.</p><p><br /></p><p>I was so stressed out for the fact that I'm now in Kuantan, a total of six hours away from my home, needing to adjust to a new working environment which is like a mix of 360-degree changes from my previous work plus a whole other kind of expectations that I didn't expect, somehow having one of the colleagues awfully reminds me of this one colleague at the hospital I work before that I simply <b>hate</b> and now I feel like I need to re-boot that<a href="https://www.afifahaddnan.com/search/label/it%20has%20been%20series" target="_blank"> It Has Been</a> series.</p><p><br /></p><p>The worst thing is I am <b>alone </b>here. Don't give me that "sapa suruh pi keje sana?" because the deal was that after I finish my probation, I'm going to work at their new branch at Perak, which conveniently hasn't opened yet. I am trying my most damn to hold onto that silver lining, that I can finally work in Perak, but there's no outlet opening in Perak now so it's kinda hard to keep a "positive mindset" at the moment (insert that skull emoji right here).</p><p><br /></p><p>This opportunity is by far the most challenging I have been and from what I've been talking with my friends, it might be the most challenging there is in our sector. We've always known this though but when you're in the system, it's a whole different kind of thing and everything simply makes sense. Simply think of it as the Family Mart of the 24-hours convenience stores or like the Pavilion of shopping malls. Their system is really what made it possible and from what we've been talking with my friends, it is indeed currently the only one who brings up to this par and they also pioneering with amazing health services. It was indeed a celebration of our professionalism too.</p><p><br /></p><p>However, did I tell you that for my probation, they stationed me in one of their most performing outlets? So it's like adapting to a new way of working altogether plus in the most hectic outlet as well. Welcome to my life.</p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEjhNni-t8aaV5972ZY1rXdzH6a2yyPyIIBiMAFZCm_LTAlAJgBJ8HfFjt1Te4ChBYF69Y4ayN-ISZ3rU1CVTfbS6t3h4xv_UY_EdEP-SWw-FBedpra2UF1nrvt2IOUXG_g5BodNuNg49MhQGOrw_rxrQ0LftrUnAqQqhhGzCSpDCTmKwGdSBKB4qJRrsg=s5472" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="5472" data-original-width="3648" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEjhNni-t8aaV5972ZY1rXdzH6a2yyPyIIBiMAFZCm_LTAlAJgBJ8HfFjt1Te4ChBYF69Y4ayN-ISZ3rU1CVTfbS6t3h4xv_UY_EdEP-SWw-FBedpra2UF1nrvt2IOUXG_g5BodNuNg49MhQGOrw_rxrQ0LftrUnAqQqhhGzCSpDCTmKwGdSBKB4qJRrsg=w426-h640" width="426" /></a></div><br /><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p>It is a stressful expectation with a lot of tiring effort, and a combination of both is never a good thing in my life, talking from past experiences too. Am I exaggerating? Well most probably, since I've only been in the shop for a few days, it's not enough time to be making conclusions. Yet, I know that I need to acknowledge this. That understanding this helps me to set the right mindset versus per what "performing peoples" be saying is that I need to <i>power through.</i></p><p><br /></p><p>I hate that mindset, it feels wrong that you need to summon extra power to go through something on a daily.</p><p><br /></p><p>I might be making too many early judgments or I might be wise enough to actually be making good early judgements (lol) but here's for today. An absolute newbie and this newbie is taking this hard. </p><p><br /></p><p>Yet also this newbie realizes that this is the next step that I need to go onto while still being young. That this is a big and quite a rare opportunity that enables me to absorb more relevant and structured knowledge and experiences. That I will absolutely love the outcome of my own self-progress if I succeeded in the probation. That I needed this challenge in order to become better in the way that I want and the space to be able to channel my growth. For all of these, I'm simply at THE place to be. So this is going to be my mindset.</p><p><br /></p><p>But I'm going to need some minor practical shifts and reminders to do on the daily too. Like how to cope with that one colleague, or when the stresses are building up, what can I do? Especially since simply going back home isn't the best choice now. Good time management too so that I can succeed in all the expectations they set for me and not be a living burnt-out body.</p><p><br /></p><p>The most important thing is the need to keep a fresh mindset every day instead of being daunted by the previous one so that I can work my best to improve myself. This is key. The key.</p><p><br /></p><p>Oh ya, I need to buy a new MediFeet shoe if I'm going to be standing all day.</p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p>afifahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00769907212439354980noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2770913218415236738.post-80787950988871254652022-01-27T11:35:00.002+08:002022-01-27T11:35:32.012+08:00BMPIL Writing Challenge - What's In My Bag and In My Car<p> </p><p style="text-align: justify;">There is about one week left of my resignation notice and now I'm back into the tiresome hassle of finding a new place. Also, I need to change my brake pad and go to my Dr. Ko monthly check-up which I have put away for weeks now. I really, really, don't feel like doing anything these days especially since I usually spend the weekend at home and the rush to work on Monday and then simply wither away due to the fact that I haven't been eating on time and I'm only either at work, sleeping or on my phone. I even uninstall Instagram just to maybe, kinda, cut off my screen time a bit. </p><p style="text-align: justify;"><br /></p><p style="text-align: justify;">Anyway, I went for a walk this morning and did some cleaning around the house. That feels productive even tho I really do have to go to Dr. Ko as soon as possible but we're going to push that aside (again) and write a little cause I feel that this good feeling will go to waste if I don't write.</p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEjkqv_bSHxT216Kj3ADp_eimrkahyOTvAfSOKmbwUarG3HVR9bgoNvuD0H9KeqdY3j1QSSCUpxgpMentd2BVdR_FaESL-I5BfJ2kiPtxUgyQKjfYYDUt3aq75n8Afr759moiIK6nBnXAmy1itJdFrg_Ui1_ePUlu3xvAghTNbWEvW0hmXVBxhnoTrX9NA=s2448" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2448" data-original-width="2448" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEjkqv_bSHxT216Kj3ADp_eimrkahyOTvAfSOKmbwUarG3HVR9bgoNvuD0H9KeqdY3j1QSSCUpxgpMentd2BVdR_FaESL-I5BfJ2kiPtxUgyQKjfYYDUt3aq75n8Afr759moiIK6nBnXAmy1itJdFrg_Ui1_ePUlu3xvAghTNbWEvW0hmXVBxhnoTrX9NA=w640-h640" width="640" /></a></div><br /><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p>What's in my bag?</p><p><br /></p><p>I have four bags that I rotated the usage with varying sizes but in general, there are on the small side. I usually change it every few weeks or so. All of them are black save for one which is in beige color only because it is a farewell gift from my previous work. They wanted to see me in other than black #lol.</p><p><br /></p><p>I only buy black because it goes with everything especially since I will carry that one handbag everywhere. I opted for small bags because I hate how messy it gets when I simply chuck in everything when I use a bigger one. Actually, one of the bags is bigger and I tried my best to steer away from it. In a matter of fact, I just changed the bigger handbag yesterday to a small one because it gets messy and it annoys me. I'm planning to just ruin that big handbag which excuses me to buy a new one but then I hate if I don't have the option of a bigger handbag when I needed it. </p><p><br /></p><p>It's mostly useful to put my <i>telekung </i>if we went to a mall or something since there's no free <i>telekung </i>available due to Covid-19.</p><p><br /></p><p>Since it is small, there's nothing much in it saves for the essentials - purse, lip balm, hand cream, mask extension, and my keys.</p><p><br /></p><p>Other important things like masks and hand sanitizer are stashed in my car. I never carry tissues. Sometimes, there's random medicine in it. Usually Accutane, painkillers or something for my allergies. </p><p><br /></p><p>If I use the bigger ones, there will be a lot of random stuff. It is still in there because I was too lazy to empty it yesterday. </p><p><br /></p><p>That's it for today. No handbag picture though because I'm too lazy.</p><p><br /></p>afifahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00769907212439354980noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2770913218415236738.post-81847509631839410422021-12-02T11:30:00.005+08:002022-08-06T16:19:27.826+08:00Living Late Twenties - Life of a single working person living alone<p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p>My last post was on the 4th of October. It's a good two months of me not writing anything. Not sure how I am feeling about that but yesterday, I do suddenly missing writing my poems. </p><p><br /></p><p>I thought I'm going to write about how life has been just to show how a person in her late twenties is doing. Writing a poem is not it by the way. I miss it so much though.</p><p><br /></p><p>A lot has been happening and everything went so fast. Before I knew it, there's another two months left before my three months notice is finished. Yup, that happens. I went on for an interview, succeeded and in two months, I'll be working a new place. I got two fresh new staff that I need to train, again, and I hope they'll stay long enough or at least until the company got a new pharmacist to replace me. The new staffs are so much easier to work with so I'm immensely thankful for that.</p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg_hgvzGg8ETPg45y98dF1oeEIwL60lOyR1yzduAeMswNP5nl-toM1ThbuiZq3wcUaMcbVKIQ65rXeaahlyNLUw-9KmDjofB0GGrztqpdJFgIFu1o11mxlDcP_CiMzlBg6_trdRVF6AjMjE/s2048/pexels-allec-gomes-5266276.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1537" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg_hgvzGg8ETPg45y98dF1oeEIwL60lOyR1yzduAeMswNP5nl-toM1ThbuiZq3wcUaMcbVKIQ65rXeaahlyNLUw-9KmDjofB0GGrztqpdJFgIFu1o11mxlDcP_CiMzlBg6_trdRVF6AjMjE/w480-h640/pexels-allec-gomes-5266276.jpg" width="480" /></a></div><br /><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p>I did my presentation for the company last month. It was my first time ever doing a presentation in this company and outside of the hospital setting. It occupies me for a good two weeks. I keep putting off doing the slides in favor of training new staff (the ones who have quit) and doing everything on my own since I can't rely much on the new staff. I even did the slides at home because I wanted to finish them before going on a short staycation-ish trip with my friend. It was only for a few hours though. I am very serious about not doing my work at home. </p><p><br /></p><p>I'm so proud of the slides. I purposely choose a title that I don't know much and with that, I was able to learn so many new things. The presentation went well too. All and all, it was a good success.</p><p><br /></p><p>The staycation is a success too. We were celebrating a friend of ours who came back from Sabah. We stayed at Dorsett KL, play some electronic scooter, watch a good horror movie, frolicking in the rooftop pool for hours and end it with a nice hi-tea buffet at Atmosphere 360. </p><p><br /></p><p>She did drop us a bomb by suddenly saying she is going to get married without any notice about how there's a prospective guy in her life. Now that's something that I'm not sure if I was borderline mad or just annoyed about. I'm not really close with her as we rarely get the chance to see each other but there's a few of us back then so it was natural for us to get her into our group. I guess she was that introverted person which we adopt so I love being able to celebrate her. I can't help also feeling betrayed when she told us that like it was nothing. </p><p><br /></p><p>I feel like sharing this because it's one of the things that usually happen and sometimes it can be a confusing thing.</p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjX9uNuSkJphVhsXCyyFyHyKDe8zrrCG5Uetcy4ovHdcVM-rOPfZ8yf4b_4Rt0m5ex_vBv4PFz5jdU2vV7xdwmpzXfyrtd_T550Ek36K4DlIYUqRVbBxIeuaaIASlCwXeQIyhi2QmlvMSGU/s2048/pexels-cottonbro-5137775.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1365" data-original-width="2048" height="426" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjX9uNuSkJphVhsXCyyFyHyKDe8zrrCG5Uetcy4ovHdcVM-rOPfZ8yf4b_4Rt0m5ex_vBv4PFz5jdU2vV7xdwmpzXfyrtd_T550Ek36K4DlIYUqRVbBxIeuaaIASlCwXeQIyhi2QmlvMSGU/w640-h426/pexels-cottonbro-5137775.jpg" width="640" /></a></div><br /><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p>The problem is that when I get angry or anything, I tend to shut down from such people. At first, it was because I realized that I can be so cruel when I'm mad so I learned to just step away. Before long, stepping away becomes letting them go and I am simply at peace. It is surprisingly easy to let go. Like if I ever did this to you, I'm sorry but I can't give you any good explanation because I just can't be bothered so there's that. </p><p><br /></p><p>I need to improve my communication skills. Like a friend of mine has been so annoying lately and I'm like "We need to switch you off for a while" but the pharmacy he's working at is finally opening today so I need to wish him or something. I'm so proud of him though.</p><p><br /></p><p>I've been spending more time with my family since the interstate travel ban has been lifted. They have finished re-did my old grandparent's house and I finally get to see it. It was so nice being able to stay in my village again. We even do a small get-together with my relatives there.</p><p><br /></p><p>I didn't get updated with Covid-19 cases much these past months and my new housemate told me that we might go into another lockdown so that's a thought I'm going to put far behind my mind. Oh ya, I got two new housemates so no more putting stuff everywhere because I was the only one here. That was a sweet one month of privacy.</p><p><br /></p><p>Besides those is the typical changing new tyres, getting a deal for a new brake pad, going for Dr Ko sessions and I even get the chance to try a new restaurant around here. I don't read though. I need to continue my reading lol. </p><p><br /></p><p>I think that is all and it has been good.</p><p><br /></p><p>Also, I put those Veets cream above my upper lips area to get rid of those tiny hairs. I tried shaving but it didn't give me a smooth finish. Waxing causes small bumps afterward. Putting Veets makes it so smooth so yeah. Don't do it.</p>afifahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00769907212439354980noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2770913218415236738.post-32502793900588931032021-10-04T15:15:00.001+08:002021-10-04T15:15:24.898+08:00BMPIL Writing Challenge - All About Laundry<p> What was I thinking when I put this topic in? </p><p><br /></p><p>With that thought on my mind, I am again reminded that these topics were meant to get me more in touch with my life. It is easy to get lost by doing everything as if life itself is merely a repetition of things. Day in day out. Although I love having such structure, the appeal becomes a dread as it is literally the only thing that I can do while in this "lockdown". </p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi7yLeLwrHl6iwFzgqB3RV5xLwn9QuCgIPRrNJ3Iqsh1Nt5lsPkC6QsH_32x175D0zM4JS6JfdNjiDRJVUVKxzCus8gF9DhacnkW-N4ANZAZqyEuoS9E0HTuE4Rqy36QGnSe1Jz8QwJN6Xx/s2048/pexels-max-vakhtbovych-7195881.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1367" data-original-width="2048" height="428" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi7yLeLwrHl6iwFzgqB3RV5xLwn9QuCgIPRrNJ3Iqsh1Nt5lsPkC6QsH_32x175D0zM4JS6JfdNjiDRJVUVKxzCus8gF9DhacnkW-N4ANZAZqyEuoS9E0HTuE4Rqy36QGnSe1Jz8QwJN6Xx/w640-h428/pexels-max-vakhtbovych-7195881.jpg" width="640" /></a></div><br /><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p>I haven't been home for months and literally shuts out for weeks on end to simply living day in and day out. I realized I never actually addresses this. I stop thinking about how many days it has been and I don't even care what day it is. Thank god we can do inter-district travel. I got to meet my friends and it feels so good.</p><p><br /></p><p>Anyway, I'm actually doing my laundry at the moment which is actually a coincidence. I work half-day today and will only clock in at 6pm. I usually don't do my laundry on Monday because I feel like I need to "stretch" the weekend vibes as much as possible since I usually will do an evening shift on Monday. But since the laundry is pilling and I have slept and eat enough, I feel like doing laundry will help me feel good. I did spend the entire weekend hanging out with my friend though. I even had an impromptu crash at my friend place on Saturday because we finished karaoke-ing at 1130pm lol.</p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgIs95pAk1dvrok7nbL4HtJ7u4e08GVDjVI8i-Lq2ZLQ6kPJ9iqeEzSKeZMGiO7pxTZTNNNGneKShBMCOSocm_t_jQ9vWR5EjY9Unxva-6u5RsF9cmyNTIWxXM7ANFkYSczEwpxoyG7DOPM/" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="281" data-original-width="500" height="180" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgIs95pAk1dvrok7nbL4HtJ7u4e08GVDjVI8i-Lq2ZLQ6kPJ9iqeEzSKeZMGiO7pxTZTNNNGneKShBMCOSocm_t_jQ9vWR5EjY9Unxva-6u5RsF9cmyNTIWxXM7ANFkYSczEwpxoyG7DOPM/" width="320" /></a></div><br /><br /><p></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p>My place here has a manual washing machine. Or is it a semi-automatic? I'm not sure the right term but it was those that have separate washing and spinning parts and you need to turn on the water and wait for it to fill and then set how long you want to wash it and then drain and repeat and et cetera et cetera.</p><p><br /></p><p>It usually takes me forever because I hate waiting and then I'll do other things while waiting and then I forgot about it and then I remember so then I have to change the water and the let it wash again and then I'll forget about it again. I do like how you can control everything so then I can do mini washing without the guilt of using excessive water or if I just want to a quick spin.</p><p><br /></p><p>I'm an avid user of powdered detergent. I feel like the liquid ones get stuffy if you don't hang them right away or if you don't dry them under the sun. I dry my laundry in the living room where I have this Ikea mullig and simply hangs on hangers and leave it for dayysssssssssssssssss.</p><p><br /></p><p>Like literally for days. I hate folding so much. Also, there weren't many tenants so far in all the places I have rented so there's a lot of free space.</p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEglNuoPceFogw0Ce0mFj_KzPy18_4a0r7TInwjtTo6yha9IJXGVi3ZOZfKGQMCNvPLeb9Rxdr3rKx5awR0MwRePvGSUCQn7cGfdX55qX_cWSblx_u-7Olh6umjvW5pXT7ug67c1XfnSHWte/" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="601" data-original-width="600" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEglNuoPceFogw0Ce0mFj_KzPy18_4a0r7TInwjtTo6yha9IJXGVi3ZOZfKGQMCNvPLeb9Rxdr3rKx5awR0MwRePvGSUCQn7cGfdX55qX_cWSblx_u-7Olh6umjvW5pXT7ug67c1XfnSHWte/w320-h320/image.png" width="320" /></a></div><br /><br /><p></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p>I used to buy that Daia powdered detergent with Downy scents. It smells so good. I don't use softener much due to that because let's be real, we only use softener for how good it smells. However, since my old landlord didn't fix the broken washing machine I just bought random detergent that I found in Speedmart as I did most of my laundry the 24hour self-service laundry. It was those that gives detergent and softener automatically for free. </p><p><br /></p><p>When I moves in here, I still have lots of detergents left which was not Daia so I started to buy softener again. I mean why not since I'm going through all the trouble filling in the water and draining it out and whatnot, I can give effort and add softener as well I the meantime. The smell was obviously much better and I always go overboard anyway so I keep on doing that lol.</p><p><br /></p><p>The softener is finishing though, maybe I should buy the softener that Jungkook uses next. </p>afifahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00769907212439354980noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2770913218415236738.post-89282152332253480532021-09-19T14:21:00.005+08:002021-09-19T14:21:52.873+08:00BMPIL Writing Challenge - My Favourite Desserts and Snacks!<p>I was having a rather slump-ish weekend and thought to myself that I needed to write stuff here - last night. It's now almost noon - the next day.</p><p><br /></p><p>Also, I actually wrote something that just needed a minor tweaking but I don't like it anymore. I guess I needed to edit it some more. I also don't have a really nice vibe with my previous post, which is kinda a ridiculous reason. These have all and all made me want to just delete both of them but we'll persevere, I guess, and simply move on to our next topic.</p><p><br /></p><p>I love this topic (insert heart emoji here)</p><p><br /></p><p>I usually have a very specific mood for desserts and snacks. I needed to have that <i>feel </i>before actually eating it. I'm a slow eater and tends to savour everything and is even more so if the said food is desserts and snacks. These two were meant to be enjoyed <b>consciously and deliberately.</b></p><p><br /></p><p>Although, even after having said that, it was rare for me to really want to eat these. I don't know why though. Like if you give me something now, I won't touch it. </p><p><br /></p><p>Ok, let's do this, favourite dessert will go first. </p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiLao_qXecrLS8c1IedQVuMDdo3dU5RMpfqqQqMOLoxnHEXu08UgT8Rmgjj-PahAy1jtuFLQmlX49oa4AA_rxYlh0pySz4rz5iXAhP0r-rwE2ogZ-vEaVqouUs6Mzbx6bj-wBNq4Y1889r6/s2048/pexels-lina-kivaka-1813466.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1365" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiLao_qXecrLS8c1IedQVuMDdo3dU5RMpfqqQqMOLoxnHEXu08UgT8Rmgjj-PahAy1jtuFLQmlX49oa4AA_rxYlh0pySz4rz5iXAhP0r-rwE2ogZ-vEaVqouUs6Mzbx6bj-wBNq4Y1889r6/w426-h640/pexels-lina-kivaka-1813466.jpg" width="426" /></a></div><br /><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p>I am a chocolate enthusiast. Especially the creamier ones which means the ones with creams or dairy. So if it's a chocolate bar, it must be the milk ones. If it is a cake, then it must be the moist ones with luscious chocolate ganache. Naturally, this means I'm mad for moist brownies. There's this buffet we went to during our first year that served amazing chocolate souffle and I am hooked but I can't seem to find anywhere that sells it. If it's a drink, it must be a creamy chocolatey goodness one and hence that's why I hardly buy a chocolate drink. I usually buy iced drinks so I hated when the ice dilutes the drink and it's hard to find a good chocolate smoothie. I'll usually make hot drinks at home so milo and those Cadbury drinks are easily my favourite chocolate drinks.</p><p><br /></p><p>I swear to all the good looking guys in anime that I've watched (<i>tibber)</i>, dal.komm and this one local online cafe here made the best chocolate smoothies.</p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhBV7umkhUtqOlyZpZtsl95fqG_-vKQuZB-7l5ztl5cv_M7R6NwGQzpCm_vlMUfe354nozU5qvVhwo3Q5HiaFkSJsm01z-ciGr4YZ_6luYBXHfqhM-3WWdcsj2MIBKanzcCX5lnPDHIqhSK/" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="288" data-original-width="500" height="184" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhBV7umkhUtqOlyZpZtsl95fqG_-vKQuZB-7l5ztl5cv_M7R6NwGQzpCm_vlMUfe354nozU5qvVhwo3Q5HiaFkSJsm01z-ciGr4YZ_6luYBXHfqhM-3WWdcsj2MIBKanzcCX5lnPDHIqhSK/" width="320" /></a></div><br /><br /><p></p><p><br /></p><p>You can hardly go wrong with brownies as long as you stick to a recipe that includes putting chunks of chocolate into the batter but a chocolate cake from a good bakery is just on another level. I'm so into Gula Cakery now since it's close by. Apart from that, I do enjoy cheese tart as well. Be it a plain one or a fruits ones, I like them all. I'm not really a fan of egg tarts though. It's nice but I usually have this mood where I tend to not-feeling-like-having-an-egg-aftertaste.</p><p><br /></p><p>I'm not really a snack eater. I don't hate it though. I don't know why. I eat snacks but usually, I just don't feel like it. I might eat it if it's there or when the "want" come but I try not to buy much cause I know it will take forever to finish. Like there's this <i>keropok ikan </i>that I bought last Tuesday I guess because I feel like eating it and I don't have time for lunch so it was a good and rather filling snack. There's about a third of it left still laying around in the pantry.</p><p><br /></p><p>The only cookies that I eat are either those big and chewy cookies (like the Subway's) or this cookie that my friend sells (she made it herself, it is so good and addicting). I used to like Chipsmore and always buys it but I don't anymore for like months now because I think I started to not like it. This is a weird realization to me because I've been loving Chipsmore since I'm a kid. </p><p><br /></p><p>I like those crispy chocolate snacks like the ones with wafer or rice crispies like Zip from Cadbury. I love that thing. I still only do chocolate flavour though. The chewy ones like Snickers is a big no no cause I hated how it stuck to my teeth.</p><p><br /></p><p>It seems like these days, my snacks are on the sweet sides only. I don't really do savoury ones except for potato chips (any flavour is good, you can't go wrong with potato chips) and also, Super Ring. I think I only ate two types of bagged snacks - Super Ring and Pop Corn Perisa Durian. They are no bagged snacks that can compete with these two - period. </p><p><br /></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi-SijsrCOqFQXeYKEUomHbIrfuYhfDCZhCHbKPNQ4dyj9NkIZISOw9FJpbO-L0R0XYMvCltv3k9bmLKfYRHa6AGixTt4fepnk1bMMI3wi3ZhPK31sgzyWcnomuD9gxlRBindSPPjeL1afT/s800/PopCorn-Durian-800x800.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="800" data-original-width="800" height="400" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi-SijsrCOqFQXeYKEUomHbIrfuYhfDCZhCHbKPNQ4dyj9NkIZISOw9FJpbO-L0R0XYMvCltv3k9bmLKfYRHa6AGixTt4fepnk1bMMI3wi3ZhPK31sgzyWcnomuD9gxlRBindSPPjeL1afT/w400-h400/PopCorn-Durian-800x800.jpg" width="400" /></a></div><br /><p>As for ice cream, I'm usually sticking to the basics. Chocolate or vanilla. That Magnum one, the plain one, of course, is top tier. I rarely bought packed cone ice cream. I also love sour-ish popsicles which are my go-to on hot days. </p><p><br /></p><p>I also always have mints with me but the chewy ones instead. I do enjoy hard candy as well but I don't really have any preference. It's simply nice to pop one into your mouth. I think I can stock on hard candy in my room. That will be nice. </p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p>afifahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00769907212439354980noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2770913218415236738.post-34023433353697588052021-08-27T09:03:00.002+08:002021-08-27T09:03:06.557+08:00BMPIL Writing Challenge - Academic Background Throwback<p>Before we go into depth I just want to rant out a few things on what today's me with "this" academic background is currently doing. </p><p><br /></p><p>First of all, I had my second tooth removed the other day and although I had the day off, I still had to attend two online meetings, which I think is a good distraction instead of just sleeping throughout the day. Having said that, it was hard for me to fall asleep after the meeting even tho I slept for like four hours only last night. I always have at least six hours of sleep. I still sleep though, but I woke up at 6pm feeling like this isn't the real world. </p><p><br /></p><p>Also, the nurse asked for my age when she was taking my blood pressure and I am so glad that I can answer quickly and confidently and that was made possible only because I just Googled BTS members age recently and also because I asked my friends how old we are when they wish me "Happy Birthday". I don't know how I can count drug doses but become so confused when it come to counting things that are time-related.</p><p><br /></p><p>I think I might start telling people I was born in 1993 and let them count themselves.</p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><tbody><tr><td style="text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiGJzNdhB-SvIoXPq5y28vwyrfUikfVt1icCuMZrboMY6xwheJgTmGEk1DqZsRlAZgri4SDLGmMMxBboMaFG05FDrGa-w-0yH68B9ZLX5pow0ZvQuV2d6M-2SbJXOBmCNn6Gsj0KovrTFtr/s2048/pexels-karley-saagi-2801980.jpg" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1638" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiGJzNdhB-SvIoXPq5y28vwyrfUikfVt1icCuMZrboMY6xwheJgTmGEk1DqZsRlAZgri4SDLGmMMxBboMaFG05FDrGa-w-0yH68B9ZLX5pow0ZvQuV2d6M-2SbJXOBmCNn6Gsj0KovrTFtr/w512-h640/pexels-karley-saagi-2801980.jpg" width="512" /></a></td></tr><tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"><span face="-apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, "segoe ui", roboto, oxygen, cantarell, "helvetica neue", ubuntu, sans-serif" style="background-color: #e8e8e8; color: #1a1a1a; font-size: 16px; text-align: start;">Photo by </span><span face="-apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, "segoe ui", roboto, oxygen, cantarell, "helvetica neue", ubuntu, sans-serif" style="background-color: #e8e8e8; box-sizing: border-box; color: #1a1a1a; font-size: 16px; font-weight: 600; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: start;"><a href="https://www.pexels.com/@karleykosmos?utm_content=attributionCopyText&utm_medium=referral&utm_source=pexels" style="box-sizing: border-box; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-decoration-line: none;">Karley Saagi</a></span><span face="-apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, "segoe ui", roboto, oxygen, cantarell, "helvetica neue", ubuntu, sans-serif" style="background-color: #e8e8e8; color: #1a1a1a; font-size: 16px; text-align: start;"> from </span><span face="-apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, "segoe ui", roboto, oxygen, cantarell, "helvetica neue", ubuntu, sans-serif" style="background-color: #e8e8e8; box-sizing: border-box; color: #1a1a1a; font-size: 16px; font-weight: 600; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-align: start;"><a href="https://www.pexels.com/photo/woman-holding-donut-with-sprinkles-2801980/?utm_content=attributionCopyText&utm_medium=referral&utm_source=pexels" style="box-sizing: border-box; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-top: 0px; text-decoration-line: none;">Pexels</a></span></td></tr></tbody></table><br /><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p>This topic is actually the 19th-day topic but I have started <a href="https://www.afifahaddnan.com/2021/06/being-more-present-in-life-writing.html" target="_blank">writing this challeng</a>e like two months ago. It's okay though. I don't really have anyone to hold me accountable and these prompts were made so that I can sit comfortably, writes some random stuff and just have fun. If there's anyone who actually read this because they wanted to become a pharmacist - ermmm, hello?</p><p><br /></p><p>Let's start, shall we?</p><p><br /></p><p>I went to a simple <i>tadika </i>Kemas. Or was it <i>tabika</i>? 5 years old me don't care about the spelling of course. I changed my kindergarten and my primary schools thrice each as my parents keep on changing places. I think they keep applying or something because they want to settle down at Manjung. I don't really put my thought about those except it means that I don't really have that friend since I was five years old. The one friend I have known the longest is probably since I was eight or nine, from my second primary school, and we kinda get back in touch later on as we went to the same high school. </p><p><br /></p><p>I have no idea how we could still recognize each other. I think it was sometime during degrees that we just randomly remembered that we actually knew each other for a very long time. Since my parents were primary schools teachers, I went to the same primary school that either my mom or my dad work and thus keeps on following them when they move. It was when I was 10 years old that I finally stay at one school and finishes my primary year's education. Yes, I was that <i>anak cikgu. </i></p><p><i><br /></i></p><p>Remember how <i>anak cikgu </i>always ended up being a school prefect? I don't want to be one so I settled with being a librarian instead. I think that was one of my most fun primary schools experience. </p><p><br /></p><p>This is turning a lot more sentimental actually so I'm going to write <i>so</i> long.</p><p><br /></p><p>Fun fact - this last primary school that I went to is a <i>sekolah wawasan </i>plan from the government to kinda integrate the three main races in the same compound and improves our unity? I think there's like three or four of these schools throughout Malaysia. The idea was to have three schools for each main race (Malays, Indians and Chinese) in the same compound and like the kids could befriend each other. </p><p><br /></p><p>It doesn't work though since the schools and hence the classes are still separated and we only saw each other during recess. Plus, the Chinese school was never opened. I don't know why. It was still a kids school so it is still very lively and fun. It was the prettiest school too since it was the newest built school around the area. We also only have morning sessions instead of the usual two sessions of schooling in government schools so it was a whole lot less crowded but it was a bit far from my home. </p><p><br /></p><p>Actually, my dad made a point for us to go to a morning session school throughout our entire primary schooling years. Something about wanting the whole family to eat together during lunch. I think that's the other reason why they keep changing schools. </p><p><br /></p><p>What this also means is that I only regularly went to afternoon schools when I was ten. We don't have afternoon schools from age seven to nine because they follow the government schools nearby scheduled who practices that two sessions of schooling. I still took UPKK though.</p><p><i><br /></i></p><p>I don't have to follow my mom anymore when I went to high school. I just have to go to a school close to my home. I remember feeling so scared because I'm going to a new school with new people that I don't know. I was turning 13 years old so it's natural to start being so self-conscious. I was afraid that I can't penetrate into the new clique of friends since the kids will most likely be coming from the same primary school and know each other for years while there I was - that new kid. I was just being too worrisome although as I get older, I started to realize that these changing schools actually have affected me so much in my way of approaching new people.</p><p><br /></p><p>With high school thus begin my years of riding to school and become so beautifully tanned. I think my current tanned skin was due to all those years of riding under the near noon heat. I have this one friend who lives in the same neighbourhood as mine that I ride together with to school every day. We always end up in the same class and thus sits with each other throughout all those five years and somehow also ended up doing the same clubs most of the time. </p><p><br /></p><p>I was a kid and I guess I never really understand the whole friendship stuff back then. It was just always having someone. I think I was too clueless at that time to really appreciate friendship too. However, we do have this ease and comfort with each other and we also have lots in common too. I've known her since I was 11 years old. Also, she was<i> that friend</i> who I use her name whenever I want to hang out like - "she's going to be there too so please let me go as well". My dad was the typical unnecessarily strict Asian parent. Oh my god, I miss her so much. She works in KL now so I thought it will be fun to hang out with her more often as I've moved closer now but then Covid-19 happen.</p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiZnPPhjOTlVPd1DOfHcEemzfc1q6nG9_oZumzKtVaavG9EOhga1I5XTArL7cQA609Z9_6Qd61Om5oc3Zh3tPV0zGUkd_f5rYQhi84Kr4k21cP5_wpNBJ2Otnnn7twhU5xKjKFk3XnA9BNS/s2048/pexels-anna-shvets-4167544.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1365" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiZnPPhjOTlVPd1DOfHcEemzfc1q6nG9_oZumzKtVaavG9EOhga1I5XTArL7cQA609Z9_6Qd61Om5oc3Zh3tPV0zGUkd_f5rYQhi84Kr4k21cP5_wpNBJ2Otnnn7twhU5xKjKFk3XnA9BNS/w426-h640/pexels-anna-shvets-4167544.jpg" width="426" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p>High school went on pretty peacefully. It was simple and carefree. Studying wasn't much of a struggle, alhamdulillah for that. My classmates were the nicest people ever too. We get along so well and most of us stay in the same class for all those five years. I even ended up being the class leader one time as I was simply promoted when the current class leader got an offer to a boarding school. Thinking back about that now feels kinda weird because I always remember being indifferent in school so why did the teacher think I have leadership skills?</p><p><br /></p><p>I'm not sure if I was actually ever qualified for a boarding school but I did purposely not giving much effort when applying. I want to stay at home. You can't simply laze around and watch tv if you're in a boarding school lol. Apart from that, we had the best teachers too and since most of us were these well-behaved kids, we didn't have much drama like <i>cikgu merajuk sebab kelas bising </i>or not turning out our homework. Like I said earlier, it was peaceful. Also, my favourite subject was History.</p><p><br /></p><p>Afterwards, I went to Selangor Matriculation College. I knew I could've done better in SPM and since I wasn't a straight A's student, my chance was slim to none to get me to a foundation study. I choose matriculation and I remember wanting to redeem myself. Thus started my first experience ever living far away from home and living in dorms. Matriculation was my first shot at living independently which is kinda daunting but in a good way. Plus it is also my most honest life experience.</p><p><br /></p><p>I remember being so good in my studies and everything that the lecturers taught just clicked. It was still all hard works and diligent discipline, especially in mathematics. It goes without saying that a person whose favourite subject being history most probably will not be doing so well in mathematics. I had a friend who taught me diligently earlier on and that tutoring of her really takes off. Her name is Afifah too. I could grasp the topic easier as the year goes by afterwards. I never get to thank her enough how that simple gesture of her really helps me a lot to build my confidence and better study habit. I daresay I might <b>not</b> actually become a pharmacist without her help.</p><p><br /></p><p>The funniest thing is that it surprises me how much mathematics wasn't actually that bad. As my friend helps me with the basics that I failed to understand properly while in high school, the following topics were made easily understood as the lecturer was simply so good at explaining. The new concepts were almost welcoming and all the assignments were just these fun challenges for me. It was so surprising that I was even chosen to tutor a group of my classmates as matriculation have these programs where the better-performed classmates tutoring the other classmates. </p><p><br /></p><p>This might seems like obnoxious self-praise but it is honestly the best thing ever as I started to realize my actual potential. Not like to get you A's and good job but simply the attitude I've developed from it. It humbles me to know what vast knowledge really means, how to get around it so that I can provide myself with the necessary part that I needed and just understanding a lot better about myself too. Being a simple suburban kid of a primary teachers parent who meets the same person for years and hardly struggles in studies, except maybe like few months before SPM, this is a big thing for me.</p><p><br /></p><p>With that, I got to enrol at The National University of Malaysia (UKM). But not the Bangi Campus. I was in the Kuala Lumpur Campus. It was kinda shocking when I realized that a simple girl like me is going to spend four years in the most metropolitan city in Malaysia. I never even thought of wanting to live in a big city. I simply apply for pharmacy and only upon receiving my offer letter that I come to realize that UKM's pharmacy study was on campus in KL. I remember earlier during orientation seeing how bright the sky was at night. It was glowing in orange as if a really big fire erupted. That was such a silly thought and then I started to understand what light pollution means. I thought I'd be more culture shock though. A real anti-climatic on that part.</p><p><br /></p><p>It was a wonderful time. The KL campus was a lot smaller than the main campus, but that just means more close-knitted communities among all the different faculties. There isn't much to offer too but we're in the middle of KL so everything is just within reach. The funniest thing is how I needed to explain that our campus was smacked in the middle of Chow Kit and only a walking distance to both a monorail station and Kampung Baru. It was during those years when the cold looking Tun Razak Exchange started to be built. Also, our residential college is literally behind Tasik Titiwangsa. Tasik Titiwangsa is such a big perk but it's also a really big park. You need to walk about 1km to get you to the nearest bus station or pay for pricey taxis to get you to the nearest LRT station. We actually almost exclusively went everywhere with LRT and monorail, which then means that we have no idea how to ride those KL buses #lol.</p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhp6GwStUov36ZQToJWIMFHRP8VNOSCUS91tCrkntkAND3RSx5T_H6N5jW_lRnimmD5n7MDwudWbh8KBzpEr_zMpyeFdYKSzpr1RHJQFIg5IGRFe_AjtseqpmlzdkQK63X9ZUkGyb-FEcVM/s2048/pexels-umar-mukhtar-1549813.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1365" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhp6GwStUov36ZQToJWIMFHRP8VNOSCUS91tCrkntkAND3RSx5T_H6N5jW_lRnimmD5n7MDwudWbh8KBzpEr_zMpyeFdYKSzpr1RHJQFIg5IGRFe_AjtseqpmlzdkQK63X9ZUkGyb-FEcVM/w426-h640/pexels-umar-mukhtar-1549813.jpg" width="426" /></a></div><br /><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p>With my newfound interest in studying, choosing pharmacy just makes so much sense. Although we do have this reputation being those who are "not qualified to become doctors so we applied for pharmacy" instead. It was a really childish thought considering how much money people be making in the pharmaceutical industry and how private doctors revenue mainly focuses on pharmaceuticals. I never have thought of pharmacy as a lesser thing of course. It's just an absurd concept for me especially since I myself purposely choose this. I remember one of the lecturer's speeches during our orientation simply questioning our choice and his readiness to give a recommendation letter if any of us want to change our mind. </p><p><br /></p><p>We were blessed with lots of talented lecturers and such an amazing curriculum as well. I learned to realizes this once I entered the working atmosphere. I was exposed to lots of opportunities and experiences to prepare me for the outside world. I realized how they really try to produce graduates with a good sense of consciousness and value while still being in a well-adapting character. At least I think so. I can recall direct and indirect exposures, exercises and a variety of assignments plus simply being taught by these well-rounded lecturers which leave me with a deep impression. </p><p><br /></p><p>Now I'm working. Working has taught me a lot more things but in an informal way of studying. It even shows more sides of me. This blog has become even more crucial for me ever since. It guides me to get a better grip of myself as writing helps me a lot to process this new "knowledge" and getting to understand it either in the sense of possible consequences or just reflecting. </p><p><br /></p><p>Someone told me that getting a degree but not working in that field of degree is okay. It's not a crucial thing to secure a job that reflects your degree. I never really understand that but I'm not saying it's wrong or anything. I guess it's because I always have this specific inkling not to study something that I don't really need to have a use for. Especially during this time of my life where there is no assignment to be done or exam to look forward to.</p><p><br /></p><p>Although it is arguable that most of what I do day to day at work this time especially, as a community pharmacist, actually reflect what I learned. Heck, most of what I did wasn't even something that I was ever taught, ever. But I can say for sure that without my academic background, I can't pull this off. Also, I can't imagine being in this pandemic without my science background. It must be so confusing #lol.</p><p><br /></p><p>I always believe that there's going to be things that will be exposed or provided to you along the academic pathway that you've chosen which will then intuitively guides you to your next future. Thus in that sense, it kinda makes more sense to me to always land on something related unless there's a big shift of things that just makes you feel that you can just forego it all and step onto a new future. Future is an undetermined timespan. You can have as many futures as you want. Also, pharmacy is a really flexible career.</p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p>afifahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00769907212439354980noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2770913218415236738.post-32705069710840193772021-08-16T00:07:00.005+08:002021-08-16T00:07:31.499+08:00BMPIL Writing Challenge - What Grocery Shopping Looks Like For Me<p>My last post on Being More Present In Life Writing Challenge was almost <a href="http://www.afifahaddnan.com/2021/07/bmpil-writing-challenge-what-i-did-on.html" target="_blank">three weeks ago</a>. I was busy at work I guess. Plus I had a really bad toothache for about a week and had one of my wisdom teeth removed last Monday and I am scheduled to remove another one this coming Friday. Exciting times.</p><p><br /></p><p>I also<a href="http://www.afifahaddnan.com/2021/07/living-late-twenties-no-commitment.html" target="_blank"> wrote about a new topic</a> in my last post and was really excited to continue it but it might have to wait for a while. I just starting to feel like myself literally yesterday and I am due for one of the main inconveniences in my current life tomorrow so yeah, let's start simple.</p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEikF-BXUaLsXVW7FZR2iQpnGCk7pl1t8fcOpRmNbI0fx9qcdjJ9kHislN3LCfAZMmX_3YcXFhPyAZeuOiG6FlCz-Q4BArYpwEutYh5X5rp8PkLs7LWAMFL_jrl9ZKrHZgJZ9mid-5wk-sJE/s2048/pexels-oleg-magni-1005638.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEikF-BXUaLsXVW7FZR2iQpnGCk7pl1t8fcOpRmNbI0fx9qcdjJ9kHislN3LCfAZMmX_3YcXFhPyAZeuOiG6FlCz-Q4BArYpwEutYh5X5rp8PkLs7LWAMFL_jrl9ZKrHZgJZ9mid-5wk-sJE/w480-h640/pexels-oleg-magni-1005638.jpg" width="480" /></a></div><br /><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p>I skipped this topic and wrote ahead of the two next topics because I was going to do my grocery shopping on my day off. However, I forgot that I needed to write about it and that I should've taken a photo and only remembers it when I finished unpacking everything so there's that. Not to mention I went out another two times afterwards because I keep forgetting stuff to buy. I usually made a list but I didn't make one that day and I regretted it until today. I'm not even exaggerating. </p><p><br /></p><p>I'm not going to do any big grocery shopping anytime soon so let me just tell you how grocery shopping usually went for me. Since I just removed a tooth and I am due for another one in a few days, I'm only doing a simple grocery shopping for now.</p><p><br /></p><p>Since I have moved out from my old place, I started to buy my grocery in a new place. I used to do my grocery hopping at nearby a Tesco, Econsave or Segi. It depends on what I need or if I need to make a stop at Watsons, located in Tesco. I don't really mind where I buy stuff since I'm buying for one so the price isn't much of an issue for me. I usually only did a big grocery shopping when I have more items ran out so that I didn't have to go out multiple times. If it is only an odd one or two things, like for example, now I'm running out of chicken but I still have a frozen minced one, I'll just cook things that needed minced chicken instead.</p><p><br /></p><p>Somehow, living alone for a few years now, I learned to know the basics that I need to always have in stock. It was kinda a breakthrough realization for me since earlier on, I don't feel like I<span> need to have much groceries and just buy things when I feel like it. I don't do early breakfast before work and always have takeaways so I hardly cook. I also used to always almost exclusively only drink instant coffee. Not only that I usually home during weekends so I am only really at my rented place after work.</span></p><p><span><br /></span></p><p><span>However, these days, I feel like those times when I was buying groceries at home where I make sure these "things" are in stock because a home needed them. I made a point to do actual grocery shopping for myself because this current home of mine needed these and also because (1) apparently it is nice to have food at home since eating takeaways can be too bleak and (2) I hate needing to go out to buy this and that so let's just buy enough to last me a long time before needing to go out again. It was mostly because I don't know what to eat and somehow cooking simple meals always works for me.</span></p><p><span><br /></span></p><p><span>It is still a plain groceries haul though plus I learned to stock on things that will last long. I keep quite a variety of food because I always don't know what to eat so it ends up taking longer to finish. I still don't cook quite as regularly as I wanted to but if I did cook, I will only do a single meal. So things like condiments, oil and rice will take an even longer time to run out. </span></p><p><span><br /></span></p><p><span>Much to my joy, I found out that I like eating some simple noodle dish when I don't feel like eating anything so I always have a pack of spaghetti and those bolognese sauce in a jar at home. I like eating vermicelli as well so I always stock on that too. I recently learned about canned vegetables so I have that to cook with the spaghetti and vermicelli because those frozen vegetable ones ain't really working with me. I have a variety of frozen food though - minced meat, tempura nuggets, fries, paratha, sausages and recently I learned that those chicken popcorns really does taste like actually chicken lol. Sometimes I just cook this frozen food and called it a day.</span></p><p><span><br /></span></p><p><span>I started to stock on other drinks too instead of just instant coffee. Sometimes I'll buy cordials but it was either Sunquick or Nutrifres. Next, it was the regular instant noodles, probably some snacks, milk, eggs, butter, syrups, ice cream, flour (almost exclusively for making pancakes) and Chilsung cider if the place happens to have one. Eggs are important though. It has been my prized solution for protein sources especially when I feel like I needed to eat more than just instant noodles for dinner or a plain cup of coffee for breakfast. Sometimes, I'll be fancy and buy fruits.</span></p><p><span><br /></span></p><p><span>I do buy fresh food but only when I know for sure I'm going to cook it soon so that's why I hardly buy it. I don't know how long has that one piece of chicken cut has been in my fridge until I finally cooked it yesterday. </span></p><p><br /></p><p>I really did make a whole post about my groceries lol. Does this make me a good adult? Because this adult is really thankful for this adulting skill because now I feel like drinking a cup of cold milk and thank god I just bought one this morning. </p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><span><br /></span></p><p><span><br /></span></p><p><span><br /></span></p><p><span><br /></span></p>afifahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00769907212439354980noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2770913218415236738.post-72126665843521896272021-07-25T13:10:00.001+08:002021-07-25T13:10:31.921+08:00Living Late Twenties - No Commitment ?<div><br /></div><div><br /></div>I'm starting a new series called "Living Late Twenties" to address few topics about my own realities. These will mainly revolve around my current life as I'm approaching the thirties. There are a few reasons why I want to do this. Firstly, it helps me stay grounded. Secondly, it helps me become more aware of myself and what I want or need from it. Thirdly, it helps me be in touch with more heavy issues like my mental health, pharmacist career, all those <i>hartal </i>thingy and working for a private company. Lastly, I hope it will improve my writing and vocabulary as well. <div><div><br /></div><div>For today's topic - I'm writing about my current life with no commitment.</div></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgBJgk73k24RNgC0Ww9OqGEObcd-9yXzTqWECowmgSYQ15vmOMzXZeXGY1_knC15WMBkHCeKyrXaK8gfnHvwJ7mBw4BmWIFJuXpFuy7BydsU-9w7_rtJcWCLx41-evexT7wS2B4Kje05Uy7/s1800/pexels-zukiman-mohamad-63558.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1800" data-original-width="1200" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgBJgk73k24RNgC0Ww9OqGEObcd-9yXzTqWECowmgSYQ15vmOMzXZeXGY1_knC15WMBkHCeKyrXaK8gfnHvwJ7mBw4BmWIFJuXpFuy7BydsU-9w7_rtJcWCLx41-evexT7wS2B4Kje05Uy7/w426-h640/pexels-zukiman-mohamad-63558.jpg" width="426" /></a></div><br /><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>I guess my main commitment, for now, is work. For someone who is adamant to have a work-life balance, it is just cruel that I ended up having "work" as my main commitment. I'm not one to think about how you should work hard and play hard. Climb up the ladder of career and come out triumphant at the top of it. Or simply make tonnes of money to retire early. I knew there's a balance to be kept between my work life and my personal life but I also know that these two things can't really be separated as black and white. </div><div><br /></div><div>The two will always coincide. </div><div><br /></div><div>I hold on to this principle where <b>your work is still your life but your life isn't all about your work</b>. So for me, working is still me living my life. I can only afford this kind of mindset if I have a job that I enjoy and that excites me.</div><div><br /></div><div>This is something I have thought deeply about long before I started my degree in pharmacy. I never really know what I wanted to be. I just made sure I did science stream just to warrant me a variety of choices when the time comes for me to finally needing to choose one. </div><div><br /></div><div>Choosing pharmacy was a mixed-off different reason. </div><div><br /></div><div>There's this expectation from my father and as for my late mother, she doesn't really ask much but I know choosing something like pharmacy will make her proud. There's this heavy "science" influence as I have been a science student for the longest time so I knew I needed to choose something of science-based. I also knew being me, I needed a career with a touch of the outside world and also allow me to engage with people so labwork isn't really appealing at all. I also want to do something that allows me to help people. I just think it will be a good life to live when your work involves helping others. </div><div><br /></div><div>One thing I didn't expect is how people simply expect me to choose medicine and be a doctor. We all know doctors have all those on-call shifts whatsoever plus needing to tend to gory wounds. You can't pay me enough to live such a life. </div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><div style="text-align: center;"><iframe allowfullscreen="" class="giphy-embed" frameborder="0" height="392" src="https://giphy.com/embed/AwiIm0GVSsC6k" width="480"></iframe></div><p style="text-align: center;"><a href="https://giphy.com/gifs/no-honey-boo-AwiIm0GVSsC6k">via GIPHY</a></p><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>Apart from work, there's my car, bills and monthly rent. That's it. I'm blessed to have a father that still and most probably will always be, hardly does any work, but still be making enough money to live comfortably and take care of all of my other siblings. I do make a point to splurge my siblings though. I also took this path to spend the money on my skin. I have spent thousands for god sake and restarting all over again when I got a breakout as Covid-19 strikes. This time I am adamant to eat Accutane at least until the compulsory mask-wearing rule is lifted. I have no significant other so I don't save up money for weddings or whatsoever. Although I do want to make a small ceremony only.</div><div><br /></div><div>I just started to feel like buying myself a house which will require a more detailed plan so I decided to start saving for a year or so after I finish my laser treatments. I'm thinking to look for a new job too so it's better to settle down in a new job first before deciding the location of the said house. </div><div><br /></div><div>I think that's the most beautiful thing about me not having a "real" commitment. I can decide these without <i>pressure</i> and when I feel like it. </div><div><br /></div><div>I knew people who ought that a person with my financial abilities should be having a house, should spend on a local car (no offence to those who did but I just don't like those lol, the new Bezza do be looking nice though), should travel the world, should have kids before thirties, etc etc. I'm aware of these expectations but I just never feel like I was the person who is expected to do so. Heck, h<i>artal </i>or not, I'm just looking at it as a way to be flexible and change when I feel like I needed to.</div><div><br /></div><div>The hardest question is - am I being irresponsible for choosing this way of living? Somehow, social construct made me feel like this is the main issue - that I am somehow being irresponsible. If so, to whom do I owe these responsibilities anyway? Because responsible or not, I am happy and content.</div><div><br /></div><div>I know for a fact that my father wants me to settle down as soon as possible and I guess at this point he knew he can't say anything that will change my mindset. That's about it. </div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><div style="text-align: center;"><iframe allowfullscreen="" class="giphy-embed" frameborder="0" height="366" src="https://giphy.com/embed/S5E6VIkBAGujjfT0zz" width="480"></iframe></div><p style="text-align: center;"><a href="https://giphy.com/gifs/moodman-S5E6VIkBAGujjfT0zz">via GIPHY</a></p><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>However, there is one thing I know for sure. I owe myself <b>more self-development </b>than my current work. I feel like I need a side thing to do to complete this pharmacist side of mine. I know I needed another commitment and preferably something on the creative side or something that solely depends on me to build on from scratch. </div><div><br /></div><div>There are few ideas that I took a liking to. Probably a more professional blogger, freelance content creator, actually put an effort and publish a poetry book, some simple business on Shopee or learn one or two new languages. Something to get my brain active you know. It's hard though. In between this current eight-hour job and just how depressing Covid-19 is being plus THE FREAKING HEAT, it's easier to just not do anything. I don't really have much commitment anyway.</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div>afifahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00769907212439354980noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2770913218415236738.post-56041420679122569602021-07-23T00:30:00.002+08:002021-07-23T00:30:23.435+08:00BMPIL Writing Challenge - What I Did On The Last Day Before PKP Starts Again.<p>I had to Google if it was supposed to be "on the last day" or "in the last day" for the title and I never thought that one of the things I would notice when I'm doing <a href="http://www.afifahaddnan.com/2021/06/being-more-present-in-life-writing.html">this challenge </a>was how bad my English is and how limited my vocabulary as well.</p><p><br /></p><p>So, on the last day before PKP start, I'm not sure what PKP was it but it was when we can still <i>rentas daerah </i>and dine in, I made a point to go out. We went for a staycation two weeks before, so this time it was a simple meet-up and just hang out. Since it was very last minute, we just decided to go to Setia City Mall to walk around and have a bite. Setia City Mall has just opened Lulu Hypermarket so I went around to have a see but since I don't feel like bringing groceries home, I didn't buy anything. I remember seeing this one pan that was just the right size and the right depth and thought to myself to come again to buy it. Then this <i>actual </i>lockdown happens.</p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjmfVdCkaWdA1_tKt0g40w1PjpNv6eC7Yingfpv_cjELyJf3ycGe-TeX07hOpqQLdRbGtL_4-qk9exrUJAMRPwY6b4e1Avvt_-9drH5kOE5QaOM5UZb0h66jVLux1_L5QQ07I0ZhAvJc95f/s2048/pexels-angela-roma-7319138.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1365" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjmfVdCkaWdA1_tKt0g40w1PjpNv6eC7Yingfpv_cjELyJf3ycGe-TeX07hOpqQLdRbGtL_4-qk9exrUJAMRPwY6b4e1Avvt_-9drH5kOE5QaOM5UZb0h66jVLux1_L5QQ07I0ZhAvJc95f/w426-h640/pexels-angela-roma-7319138.jpg" width="426" /></a></div><br /><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p>There is also a newly opened Sukiya Tokyo Bowl & Noodle. I only come to realize that Sukiya wasn't only about their hot pot so seeing that SCM has that, I just have to try. It was nice but I don't think I'm going again though. We also make a point to go to Chizu and experience the aesthetic. I forgot which branch was it that have this beautiful interior but the one in SCM was on par. The croissant wasn't really that memorable but all those toppings make it up. I do feel like the price range is a bit too much and that those mini croissants in Petronas were better. The drink was amazing though. I'm always skeptical with these cheese drinks but the cheese foam really went well with the drinks. All and all, it was a really nice day out.</p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgCuFUhBBw23WMRCE8pnhx6iy3BWn0npRNSACz0101pV5L6dpodWjwsx9d9EaVmKApJ_JIjwaD-oc5M3ZjwiCF4oPQ_ekovwcPKkFSKvDuDHjZ_zbQ-d6KqPSKfXMd59mVta6xSPn99Suce/s2048/IMG_20210410_163740.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgCuFUhBBw23WMRCE8pnhx6iy3BWn0npRNSACz0101pV5L6dpodWjwsx9d9EaVmKApJ_JIjwaD-oc5M3ZjwiCF4oPQ_ekovwcPKkFSKvDuDHjZ_zbQ-d6KqPSKfXMd59mVta6xSPn99Suce/w480-h640/IMG_20210410_163740.jpg" width="480" /></a></div><br /><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p>This was only last April but somehow feels like a lifetime ago. Not like the previous PKP, this time, everything just feels surreal. Time simply feels like a standstill. I am so glad that I can still go to work but since I made a point not to do my work at home, time just stop" once I got back to my place. It somehow feels like the surrealness of it simply triggered once I step into my place after work and only properly resume once I start my car and go to work. I swear to god the most productive thing that I have done is finishing Vincenzo and this one donghua series. I just need to go home and reset. I should probably do things like exercising or hone a new skill and whatnot but with all due respect, just fuck it.</p><p><br /></p><p>Writing helps. I need to cut out my phone time. It starts to get hot again.</p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p>afifahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00769907212439354980noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2770913218415236738.post-28881989860684380542021-07-17T22:57:00.004+08:002021-07-17T22:57:55.140+08:00BMPIL Writing Challenge - My Current Three Most Played Playlist<p>It has been a few days that I stopped writing because I just feel like it. There's actually a draft that I meant to publish before writing this but it hasn't finished yet and I don't feel like continuing it now. For now, I want to write this topic because it's easy, fun and it's about things that I enjoy.</p><p><br /></p><p>My go-to music player is Spotify. I used Youtube too but only at work though. I used to have my own playlist on Spotify that I will update every few months and then I will just keep playing that one playlist. I guess I'm becoming old already that current mainstream songs hardly interest me so I stopped updating that playlist and haven't played it for the longest time. If I feel like getting entertained and wanted to sing, I'll play either This is Maroon 5 or This is Adele on Spotify. Sometimes, I'll play either Bad Blood or Wild World album by Bastille. I knew most of the lyrics so it's easy to get in the mood and enjoy them. </p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><tbody><tr><td style="text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhS8wXo7E6EwvlNak_aqa8CT3wz_rEg7B7q_c-eIdElAhTbFwHMfAUP_0TzaawDYui2lCBQzibbq7NmuNwt3TRcunEw_eeNjfojV1KNcfeQL70NUNpoGvnIe6uXOSudVd-5_eoHoGCZQJE1/s1920/mobile-phone-6170575_1920.jpg" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1280" data-original-width="1920" height="426" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhS8wXo7E6EwvlNak_aqa8CT3wz_rEg7B7q_c-eIdElAhTbFwHMfAUP_0TzaawDYui2lCBQzibbq7NmuNwt3TRcunEw_eeNjfojV1KNcfeQL70NUNpoGvnIe6uXOSudVd-5_eoHoGCZQJE1/w640-h426/mobile-phone-6170575_1920.jpg" width="640" /></a></td></tr><tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"><br />Image by <a href="https://pixabay.com/users/tomasi-654521/?utm_source=link-attribution&utm_medium=referral&utm_campaign=image&utm_content=6170575" style="text-align: left;">tomasi</a><span style="text-align: left;"> from </span><a href="https://pixabay.com/?utm_source=link-attribution&utm_medium=referral&utm_campaign=image&utm_content=6170575" style="text-align: left;">Pixabay</a></td></tr></tbody></table><p><br /><br /></p><p><br /></p><p>Since those starting to get boring too, I started to hear to other playlists so that I can find any playlist that I will enjoy. The problem is, I don't know how to find any that I will like so I just searched random keywords but found nothing at all. Not until one day I actually found one that I just adore so much. It's called <a href="https://open.spotify.com/playlist/4cnL6XEEswzxoreTFGNsKW?si=b73f3df043d74e2a" target="_blank">Tsukishima Kei by Novaasoph</a>. I randomly scrolled to this character fanart on Instagram and by sheer coincidence, I actually read the caption saying to scan the Spotify code on the character's t-shirt. I never tried to scan a Spotify code so I thought "hey this is interesting, let's try it". The first song that played piqued my interest and I just click "Follow". </p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><div style="text-align: center;"><iframe allow="encrypted-media" allowtransparency="true" frameborder="0" height="380" src="https://open.spotify.com/embed/playlist/4cnL6XEEswzxoreTFGNsKW" width="100%"></iframe></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>I always have a playlist to play at work too. Since we cast Youtube to the shop's television, I started to find any playlist on Youtube that I enjoy. There are two playlists that I have abused so much till it bores me so I stopped playing it much nowadays but much to my joy, I found a new one! It was from actually songs from Hyuk Oh. The chill vibes but rather different than the usual melody just feel fresh for me. I always love Hyuk Oh so it was natural for me to switch to him once those two earlier playlists start to bores me.</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><iframe allow="accelerometer; autoplay; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; gyroscope; picture-in-picture" allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="315" src="https://www.youtube.com/embed/UHltGiyGVv8" title="YouTube video player" width="560"></iframe></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">I do have one playlist that I did myself which comprises of songs that I actually like but it wasn't really mainstream songs or anything? It was a collection of really chill songs that were kinda supposed to be a really cool white noise while driving but also isn't really a white noise? It wasn't even in English or Malay too which added that white noise value. It was initially meant to be my new go-to playlist but at that moment, I was enjoying these few chill-like songs and then I decided to just leave it at that. There are only eight songs that lasted for about half an hour which suited nicely for me driving back after a long day at work. All of the songs were made knows to me so randomly too. I really love this playlist since most of the songs have that one clean part that I like to just focus on it. It might be a cool beat drop, a soothing instrument, a focus on the singer's vocal, or just a mix of those. Since my car has a nice speaker and the bass is just so fine, it added more value into letting myself be absorbed into the song and let loose. Why am I exaggerating on this playlist lol. I've moved into a closer place though so I haven't played it in the car for the longest time. Songs just hit different when you're driving.</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div>
<iframe allow="encrypted-media" allowtransparency="true" frameborder="0" height="380" src="https://open.spotify.com/embed/playlist/6BeJ3wRqV29EQrFS7bPqHr" width="100%"></iframe><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div>afifahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00769907212439354980noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2770913218415236738.post-85970055674526928112021-07-11T21:20:00.001+08:002021-07-11T21:20:07.446+08:00BMPIL Writing Challenge - My Current Skincare Products<p>Today's a Sunday and I don't feel like sleeping after Subuh. However, I don't really feel like doing anything as well. I feel like eating pancakes though. I made a batch of pancakes the other day and just keeps it in the refrigerator so I can simply reheat it whenever I feel like eating pancakes. Sometimes you just want pancakes you know.</p><p><br /></p><p>Afterward, I feel sleepy again. It was almost 8am something so I thought I've been awake enough this early in the morning and went back to sleep. Woke up again at 11ish and just don't feel like I need to do anything so like <i>pejam celik pejam celik </i>and decides to properly wake up when it's 11.30am. I don't like waking up late. It makes me feel bad and even groggier but there are days when I did this and feel refresh. I guess it's a good reset to sleep on that long. I still don't know what to do and then I remembered my leftover tom yam yesterday and some dishes I left because I was too lazy yesterday so I did those. Since I'm still not sure what to do, I just cooked some rice since it's almost noon anyway and finally decided to write this.</p><p><br /></p><p>I made an actual effort last night to took some decent pictures of my skincare products. Setup a mini all-white background and use my table lamp for extra lighting. But the table lamp is running out of battery and I'm too lazy to recharge it so I didn't go into trying different angles. Should've tried the HDR mode.</p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhQhj1-os0RepQ-ABOeqTnCiE5527ntreD5yTQr7gN8zAhySK4ogQy5CfF35J6GPJd521iuMPeGhRX5qUBBWUxs32jnsC2yA-87HqiWty_nTe8NCWZ7T63SZqEp9YHZ05SVK_KsyjKT4_m_/s2048/pexels-adrianna-calvo-3989574.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1365" data-original-width="2048" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhQhj1-os0RepQ-ABOeqTnCiE5527ntreD5yTQr7gN8zAhySK4ogQy5CfF35J6GPJd521iuMPeGhRX5qUBBWUxs32jnsC2yA-87HqiWty_nTe8NCWZ7T63SZqEp9YHZ05SVK_KsyjKT4_m_/s16000/pexels-adrianna-calvo-3989574.jpg" /></a></div><br /><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p>I'm not the most diligent in putting on skincare but I do made a point to at least stick to basics for my skincare which means the main four step - cleanser, toner, moisturiser and sunscreen. However, since I have an acne prone skin, I do have acne spot treatment on hand as well which I only wears when I have acne or those tiny bumps. Apart from that, I also have some products for hyperpigmentation.</p><p><br /></p><p>My main concern in my skincare is hydration and also not having any oily finishes. The trend today is more on getting those glowy looks from applying skincare products but I feels like it looks too oily me. I wanted my skincare too look like it hydrates my skin and just looks plump? So now, I somehow keeps at least two types of gel or water based moisturizer and mix them. I don't know why I did those but I did it lol. At night however, I'll mix one either gel or water based moisturizer with a heavier consistency and slightly oily moisturizer. I think I feel like cleansing my face just bares it naked and I need to take that opportunity to lock in moisturizer and since I'm not going anywhere at night, applying a heavier afterwards will in turn lock in the moisturizer. I swear I didn't make this up. There a science somewhere in there that I have learned which makes me wears it like this. Also I just love wearing moisturizer.</p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEigumspkmTV4qmuD7wmZeeIQ7pHRloN8PTqry0cEi8oh7k2w14m2yPLV-3uZkvY0fblRjn4cT8wEnxkFfBmYs4Ku9-4yLrYkXJ4J-eiimc8O5NPkzzqDsuJZBj2oafzRWdxsRPSIWHCnLYr/s2614/IMG_20210710_205305+%25281%2529.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1203" data-original-width="2614" height="294" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEigumspkmTV4qmuD7wmZeeIQ7pHRloN8PTqry0cEi8oh7k2w14m2yPLV-3uZkvY0fblRjn4cT8wEnxkFfBmYs4Ku9-4yLrYkXJ4J-eiimc8O5NPkzzqDsuJZBj2oafzRWdxsRPSIWHCnLYr/w640-h294/IMG_20210710_205305+%25281%2529.jpg" width="640" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><br /><p>I have four moisturizer at the moment. I finishes my Hada Labo Moisturising Water Gel and thought to save some money and buys the good ol' <b>Aiken Tea Tree Oil Moisturizer.</b> It has been a while since I wore Aiken. I decided to wear Aiken because I wanted to incorporate more oil into my skin and also because I started to use their <b>Aiken's T</b><b>ea Tree Oil as spots treatment</b>. I have benzoyl peroxide for spot treatments before this but it just don't work like at all and the bottle that I have was opened for month already so instead of buying a new benzoyl peroxide cream, I switches back to tea tree oil. The oil works like a charm since I only have like one or two papule or small pustules nowadays and it wasn't much often too. If I was having worse than that, benzoyl peroxide will work better. Though I have to tell that I don't remember Aiken's moisturiser to have such strong fragrant. Thank god it didn't cause any breakout but the smell is almost dizzying. I'm going to try Thursday Plantation once this finishes.</p><p><br /></p><p>Since I wanted to wear two type of moisturizer, I randomly bought that <b>Safi Perfect White Illuminating Day Cream</b> to replace the old Safi moisturizer that I have finishes. I can't seem to remember what was it exactly but I think it was a night cream . I was curious to see the texture of this day cream and it turns out so nice. It was absorbed right away and hardly have any smells. I'm really loving the varieties in Safi products although I'm not a big fan on the gel one which was meant for acne. It was a bit oily for me. I also have <b>Wardah Witch Hazel Purifying Moisturizing Gel</b>. Although I only buys this at random since it was on sale and because it was a gel moisturizer. The gel texture was amazing and it got absorbed right away almost like Hada Labo Moisturising Water Gel. But I'm keeping this away for now and planning to use it daily once the Safi one's finishes. As for my heavier consistency moisturizer, I'm currently using <b>The Ordinary Moisturising Factor + HA </b>(not included in the picture). I think there's a quarter left and I just don't feel like buying it online again so I'm going to just use my Vaseline once this finishes.</p><p><br /></p><p>I forgot to took photos of my cleanser and toner though. I'm using a <b>salicylic acid cleanser from Hannan Medispa and Neutrigena Deep Clean Foeming Cleanser</b>. I alternate between the two and usually only cleanse my face once a day since the Accutane really dries up my skin. I need to buy a new gentle cleanser but I just don't really feel like it. Right after washing my face, I spray on <b>Hatomugi Skin Conditioner Lotion</b> which acts as my toner. Deciding to put those lotion into a spray bottle was one of my greatest life decisions. I just sprays it and wait for it to dry which actually helps in a simple hydration of my skin before applying my moisturizer. It was a good face mist too. Unlike the regular water based mist, it really get absorbed way better and hydrates so well too. </p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhCt6LsAdb5MtIcV-W9wpjB7xQTCubkjRmhlad8ckc5wDSo4NlKn_Q2JAF72liVlyQ6HiKHh91JDnXrAer8PCIP5pq5dYAW2JgD5Yd0Zb9HZfrpVe_QQxxJZZ8DTwFTLuRY6JT_0MM_bWu8/s2048/IMG_20210710_204903.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1438" data-original-width="2048" height="450" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhCt6LsAdb5MtIcV-W9wpjB7xQTCubkjRmhlad8ckc5wDSo4NlKn_Q2JAF72liVlyQ6HiKHh91JDnXrAer8PCIP5pq5dYAW2JgD5Yd0Zb9HZfrpVe_QQxxJZZ8DTwFTLuRY6JT_0MM_bWu8/w640-h450/IMG_20210710_204903.jpg" width="640" /></a></div><br /><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p>I have three products for hyperpigmentation which is - this brightening cream for <b>Dr Ko, Wardah's C-Defense Vitamin C Serum and Safi Balqis OxyWhite Whitening Essence</b>. I don't know what was in that brightening cream from Dr Ko but I always forgot to wear it anyway. It got so many rules so I simply got too lazy to wears it. I also decided to wear vitamin C serums for my skin hyperpigmentation and that's why I mistakenly bought that Safi one's. I read it as 1000 times concentration which at the time does feels like a lie seeing it was too cheap for such claim and much later on realizes it was 1000 times better instead. I can't even remember when I bought it. I just needed a new vitamin c serum as the Wardah's one is finishing and I am too lazy to go out again. The Wardah's one have this sticky finish but dries up eventually but it kinda adds up to the moisturizer so I don't really mind. The Safi ones was like a slightly thicker waterbased gel so I'm loving it as well. I don't know if these actually lighten my hyperpigmentation but I guess it will benefits me in the long run to stick to a routine. </p><p><br /></p><p>Regardless of the many moisturizer and hyperpigmentation products that I owned, I only have one sunscreen which is this <b>Sunplay Skin Aqua UV Whitening Moisture Gel</b>. Also, I meant to buy the Biore sunscreen but I only realizes it now that it was not a Biore. But the consistency and UV protection characteristics are the same and that is the only thing that matter. No one want to have oily and white cast finishes if they ever want to stick on wearing a sunscreen.</p><p><br /></p><p>That was all. I only remembers to apply my skincare when I'm going to work and at night. I simply forgets to wear these on my days off unless if I'm going out. But the routine really makes my skin feel better and looks healthier so I really need to work on this.</p>afifahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00769907212439354980noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2770913218415236738.post-70411504541527088052021-07-09T22:38:00.002+08:002021-07-09T22:38:20.253+08:00BMPIL Writing Challenge - Good Things I've Been Doing For The EnvironmentYou know how those <i>kedai siam </i>have these lime juice in bottles which they use in cooking? I found one the other day while grocery shopping and it only cost RM3 so I bought one. I hardly cook anything that will require lime juice but I bought it because I thought it can give me some more varieties in my cooking plus it probably will make a good lime drink. I like a chilled lime drink. Again, it only cost RM3, and what a blessing that my iced lime drink turns out amazing. <div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>I've been skipping few days from writing this <a href="http://www.afifahaddnan.com/2021/06/being-more-present-in-life-writing.html" target="_blank">"Being More Present in Life Writing Challenge"</a> just because I don't feel like thinking too much after coming home at 8pm. I simply made myself comfortable and watch Netflix. I'm currently in the mood for simple action or adventure movies but kinda runs out of options on Netflix so we're writing today.</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /><div><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhQdB3B3bufUp6WB7202yMMnWhRSr0FuEuonCofyrwGI2kXsVljiniH5JslFvwIXVZv54V0z_atiKf55JMlSjrhaXhEPYfOfEHHiKwUQaV1wsOQmi13Kr0VF7Nd_tAc791DzRhxrCGMQpu2/s2048/pexels-artem-beliaikin-929273.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1365" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhQdB3B3bufUp6WB7202yMMnWhRSr0FuEuonCofyrwGI2kXsVljiniH5JslFvwIXVZv54V0z_atiKf55JMlSjrhaXhEPYfOfEHHiKwUQaV1wsOQmi13Kr0VF7Nd_tAc791DzRhxrCGMQpu2/w426-h640/pexels-artem-beliaikin-929273.jpg" width="426" /></a></div><br /><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>I'm not the most environmentally conscious person. Yet still, I daresay that I'm doing better than most people I know. You really can't expect much from Malaysians anyway. I can confidently say that there is only one person that I know personally who is such a good environmentally conscious person and practices just as much. Like this girl be bringing Tupperware to <i>tapau </i>her food and I think she once shares this shop where you can buy you groceries by putting it into your own container. I don't even think such a shop existed in Malaysia.</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>I tried though. Like for example when I did my groceries, I will bring my own bag. I knew I always forgot so I have three of those and put them all in my car so that I will always have one extra if I left any at home. I try not to buy things online and if I have to, I'll try to buy them from a local seller so that I can reduce my carbon footprint. Since I'm also lazy, if I need to drive my car out, I will try to do my work on one trip. I'll collect all my plastic bottles and put them separately so that the garbage man can simply separate them. These days, I'll bring the plastic bottles to work as there is this lorry who did rounds around the shop lot and collects those. </div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>It is quite troublesome for me to be using tumbler so I still use plastic cups but I rarely bought one <i>pon. </i>I still put vegetables and fruits in those plastics where they will tape it and then stick the barcode sticker. But since the plastic bag is just so big, I'll put few items in one plastic and had them put all the stickers on that one plastic bag. There is this one time where the <i>makcik </i>who worked at the weighing station praises me saying it's better that I put them all together than wasting all those plastic bags.</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><div style="text-align: center;"><iframe allowfullscreen="" class="giphy-embed" frameborder="0" height="400" src="https://giphy.com/embed/ZfK4cXKJTTay1Ava29" width="480"></iframe></div><p style="text-align: center;"><a href="https://giphy.com/gifs/theoffice-ZfK4cXKJTTay1Ava29">via GIPHY</a></p><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>I think one of the main things that kinda drives me to be more environmentally conscious is this kind of "not wanting to waste" thinking. I think many people can relate to me how it feels to not want to waste things. However, in my mindset, all these plastics will simply be left there not being able to decompose and just accommodate space but if I use less of them or disposes of them the right, I'm wasting less. </div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>Most that come from middle-income families like me will probably always have this "not wanting waste" mindset yet somehow, we are always so lenient when it comes to food. Thus the use of plastic still keeps on rising. It simply surprises me when one of my friends who's older by two years from me got confused when I ask them about global warming and how my other friend doesn't feel anything throwing plastic bottles after plastics bottles as her only source of safe drinking water was the bottled ones.</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>I am more laidback in terms of being good to the environment really. Yes, those big companies still at large and are the main issues here but we're living together on this one and only Earth, it's just plain stupid and selfish not being kind to it.</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiHRzUVnx7DBeP1oAw4LF-DGDhyphenhyphenNUFAamGDvyQtJOXxRxmXFTaG5haIVrTPRe9yGP4SiBjG2-gOe39qg_0EsL7IDIJcra0zFaJco_YN2hlINjetufJj6RDRrq6XhH9ZaDXOL79Vd3gy2hzE/s2048/pexels-valentin-antonucci-1275393.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1365" data-original-width="2048" height="266" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiHRzUVnx7DBeP1oAw4LF-DGDhyphenhyphenNUFAamGDvyQtJOXxRxmXFTaG5haIVrTPRe9yGP4SiBjG2-gOe39qg_0EsL7IDIJcra0zFaJco_YN2hlINjetufJj6RDRrq6XhH9ZaDXOL79Vd3gy2hzE/w400-h266/pexels-valentin-antonucci-1275393.jpg" width="400" /></a></div><br /><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>You know what, I think I will get myself a good tumbler and put it in my car so that I can use it when I suddenly buy coffee. Also, a good food container complete with compartments will be easier to fill when buying my lunch and a lot easier to eat from too. Heck, we're currently all wearing a mask <i>pon </i>if I ever feel self-conscious about it!</div></div>afifahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00769907212439354980noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2770913218415236738.post-47131609783546126162021-07-06T23:40:00.001+08:002021-07-06T23:40:08.066+08:00BMPIL Writing Challenge - How Today's Morning Before I Go To Work<p>For <a href="http://www.afifahaddnan.com/2021/06/being-more-present-in-life-writing.html" target="_blank">this challenge</a>, I am going to compare this morning with the morning of my first day writing this challenge. Also, I'm supposed to be writing about my current skincare but everything is a mess. I have yet developed a good system to arrange my skincare products in this new house so let's make this as simple as it can be and then went into arranging my skincare products.</p><p><br /></p><p>First of all, I woke up late today. I think it was almost 9am? I wake up around 8am on my first day. However, I wasn't as groggy today and was in a better mood as well. The grogginess effect that I was having before has gone by now and I've been getting better sleep. I'm not entirely sure if my improving sleep was due to my magnesium supplement or because this place wasn't as hot as my previous place. Although, it is also worth noting that I am feeling more comfortable living in this house and that I was drinking more water. The landlord provides a Cuckoo water dispenser and of course, I feel like drinking more if I got easy access to chilled water. I've been getting a mild headache, not so bad, kinda just a buzz, but still very annoying headache, quite often before as I don't get good sleep and be drinking enough water. So I didn't feel that way now. </p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgAUfeo_AkayVHPvYCF9d4XKphbVhHUBp2szzIfk0uAwPHv0BU9Nbc4Bz4lbt3LyqctDL89ui-H5XeUXRPUGm8CgNOCBuFzl2zBjMa5SEglkdPw5NZeZZY7ejSMcWCeSP0R-RVsm1q9r92V/s2048/pexels-deva-darshan-4711392.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgAUfeo_AkayVHPvYCF9d4XKphbVhHUBp2szzIfk0uAwPHv0BU9Nbc4Bz4lbt3LyqctDL89ui-H5XeUXRPUGm8CgNOCBuFzl2zBjMa5SEglkdPw5NZeZZY7ejSMcWCeSP0R-RVsm1q9r92V/w480-h640/pexels-deva-darshan-4711392.jpg" width="480" /></a></div><br /><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p>I was hungry waking up and I just want rice. I think it was my PMS. I always get so hungry during my PMS and usually, I only want rice, but apart from that, I hardly feel hungry upon waking up. However, I was so adamant to have a slow morning so going out won't fit into the schedule. Not to mention that I'm new here so I'm not sure where exactly can I get a good breakfast. Previously I went for <i>nasi dagang </i>nearby which I already know is good. Thank god that I realize I was PMS-ing last night that I cooked extra rice to be made into fried rice for my breakfast today.</p><p><br /></p><p>I made a simple fried rice and some milo. It has been two days now that I drink milo in the morning instead of coffee. I still made a coffee at work but I just want to see if I will feel any difference cutting out caffeine in the morning as the caffeine didn't really kick in the morning than it is when I'm at work. I ate my breakfast while watching the Collateral. I watched some the previous night and wanted to finish it. I watch most of Tom Cruise's movies except those during his younger years but I never watch Collateral. I liked Tom Cruise's acting for the boyish and cheeky way he acts but in Collateral, he has this more adult and serious business vibes so I just don't feel like it. Not to mention the gray hair. But it turns out good. His acting doesn't leave much impact on me per usual but the plot still carries and the movie turns out to be better than I have expected.</p><p><br /></p><p>After that, I scrolled through my phone for a while and chill. Then I tidy up a little around the kitchen and wash the dishes. Not like during the first day where I was feeling so lazy and wore a t-shirt to work, I ironed a blouse today. After that, I took a shower and get ready to work. Since I'm having a housemate now, I don't want to worry her by not closing the gate so I make a point to not running out too late so to prevent myself from making excuses not to close the gate when I'm off to work. </p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjPIgoY2q2q_3eKFtV_U2OSmwUHTdfFtNFvnb6uugdkA_AbG-xqE4-k9YSSZTlavXSzjS-BvjkpQhNhhPLLAhXPXAIFJsvw1_NxueZTzXptGWeSOrefgWi_HTImu_Py52mQnkljx1A4mNZ-/s2048/pexels-oleg-magni-1866710.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1365" data-original-width="2048" height="426" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjPIgoY2q2q_3eKFtV_U2OSmwUHTdfFtNFvnb6uugdkA_AbG-xqE4-k9YSSZTlavXSzjS-BvjkpQhNhhPLLAhXPXAIFJsvw1_NxueZTzXptGWeSOrefgWi_HTImu_Py52mQnkljx1A4mNZ-/w640-h426/pexels-oleg-magni-1866710.jpg" width="640" /></a></div><br /><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p>I found a flaw in this house. The thing is, this house has a smaller gate so I have to open both doors to get my car in. Apart from that, the gates always move! So now I need to open both doors to either side to open them, put some bricks to prevent them from moving, get my car in/out and then push away the brick to close the gate back. It was a legit ritual. I'm so getting an automated porch gate if I ever buy a house.</p><p><br /></p><p>All and all, I appreciate how much better I'm feeling. My work is just the same but I guess the hassle of needing to move out and in turn feeling out of place there kinda takes a toll on me. I was feeling so much better that I don't mind if my old landlord suddenly came up with reasons not to return my deposit. She did return it but it kinda surprises me when the thoughts came and I don't really feel bothered. My new housemate was nice. She was older than me so I guess it feels good to not being the adult in the house. </p><p><br /></p><p>That's it. I feel like drinking some chilled water.</p>afifahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00769907212439354980noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2770913218415236738.post-30477470621631850102021-07-04T23:53:00.006+08:002021-07-06T09:40:25.196+08:00BMPIL Writing Challenge - My Friend's Instagram Stories<p>It is so easy to postpone one simple task and then one simple task become five so now I'm writing instead. Also, I was so stressed with my hair fall and tries this bang's filter to see if I will look good with one since I might need one to hide my almost receding hairline. I need to buy some good essential oil or something.</p><p><br /></p><p>On the other hand, I finish two series on Netflix today! It was somewhat a relief because I actually finish not one, but two, and without randomly start on a new one. Although I did start a new one last two weeks but that's beside the point. </p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEib-XdWdHB-BfHE5VnhIVyyj1zLQSuTo_NI46iQBNqOq9FV_mn3R82NtCVuQlWCX9_MHf8Tcn1Su0y-GC-hDP1Dqh3MrQ2IMf1bw_UGB_MmtzRdtMvvQH16lp-8xQVgfrfhkipgu9nipzJw/s2048/pexels-oleg-magni-2733675.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1365" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEib-XdWdHB-BfHE5VnhIVyyj1zLQSuTo_NI46iQBNqOq9FV_mn3R82NtCVuQlWCX9_MHf8Tcn1Su0y-GC-hDP1Dqh3MrQ2IMf1bw_UGB_MmtzRdtMvvQH16lp-8xQVgfrfhkipgu9nipzJw/w427-h640/pexels-oleg-magni-2733675.jpg" width="427" /></a></div><br /><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p>For today's <a href="https://www.afifahaddnan.com/2021/06/being-more-present-in-life-writing.html" target="_blank">"Being More Present in Life Writing Challenge" </a>- we are writing a simple recap/review on ten Instagram stories that are on my Instagram. I decide to write those that were published by my actual friends. The goal here is to see what kind of "things" I was fed on Instagram although as usual, people only scroll <i>Explore</i> page most of the time.</p><p><span><br /></span></p><p></p><blockquote><span>#1</span></blockquote><p><br /></p><p>The first one is my friend from the hospital I used to work. She works in a <i>klinik kesihatan </i> now. She did two stories that were a throwback from a trip she went on in 2018. I think she went with her friends from university so it's an all-girls trip. It looks so fun with singing in the car and just loud laughing.</p><p><br /></p><blockquote><p>#2</p></blockquote><p><br /></p><p>The second one was from my sister. She always almost exclusively only post TikTok videos that are usually about anime or things she found funny and write some comment on it. She watches more anime than me now and reads manga too so her anime always varies. I love to check her stories because she is my sister and also the funny ones are really funny. Sometimes she sends us the videos too lol. For today she reposts this TikTok video complaining she didn't like the remix. It was odd because I've heard that remix so many times for so long now.</p><p><br /></p><blockquote><p>#3</p></blockquote><p><br /></p><p>The third one is from my university friend. She usually posted stuff about work or about her son. Her son is so cute. She was among the few of us that already in a relationship while studying and I think she got married when she finishes her PRP training. She was also among the few people I respect and adore due to how dependable and sweet she is while doing my degree. She posted a story about her son telling about his food journey. Always love seeing how my peers were raising their child especially since I do know their personality.</p><p><br /></p><blockquote><p>#4 and #5</p></blockquote><p><br /></p><p>Coincidentally, the fourth and fifth stories were from these seniors<i> </i>from my old hospital. One of them was newly transferred from Sabah so I only knew her for a couple of months before I move out while the other one was my dearest senior that was there from my first day there. They were doing a shift at <i>Pusat Pemberian Vaksin </i>together and were showing their darkened and dry hands due to the frequent use of hand sanitizer. I didn't know hand sanitizer can do that but I guess it was because of how drying it is. The hand sanitizer in the hospital was legit y'all. The alcohol smells just stings your nostrils.</p><p><br /></p><blockquote><p>#6</p></blockquote><p><br /></p><p>This one is also from a friend from my old hospital. She is then a colleagues with the <i>kakak </i>from #4 and #5 but I think she's two years younger than me. She is also a mom and frequently shares stories about her son. Today, she shares a quote that I found so amusing that said "Young people think they know it all. Old people think they know it all. There's a sweet spot right in the middle where we know that nobody really knows shit". It was from a parenting account. She is also a writer but I'm not sure if she has a blog. She did however uses those content creator apps and accept writing commissions.</p><p><br /></p><blockquote><p>#7</p></blockquote><p><br /></p><p>The seventh one is from a friend of mine from high school that works as a doctor. She shares a short clip of what I believe and CT scan or a MRI scan. That was my first time seeing such a scan in video form. It was usually in the form of pictures. I got intrigued and ask her for more details about it lol. It shows increased pressure within her patient skull that leads to intracranial bleeding that in turn causes a stroke. The patient defaulted their medicine. This is the actual result when we told people to eat their blood pressure medicine or else they can get a stroke. Those little headaches that the patient only dismissed with Panadol were only there when the blood pressure was too high already.</p><p><br /></p><blockquote><p>#8</p></blockquote><p><br /></p><p>This story is from my university friend who is currently working in Sabah. She was promoting <i>nasi dagang </i>from a place in Kajang which probably her family member business or something. She is indeed a Terengganu breed. Oh my god, that <i>nasi dagang </i>looks so good,</p><p><br /></p><blockquote><p> #9</p></blockquote><p><br /></p><p>This story is about my friend's son. The first one was funny. It shows how her husband, putting their son's milk on a controlled toy car and had it delivered to him. The other showing her son being all cute and want to help to make mommy's coffee. She is also a friend from my university that was in a relationship while doing our degree and got married sometime after PRP too. I made a point to highlight this because they weren't many of us who got into an actual relationship while studying and we only have one couple from our batch that got married yet we have no idea at all that they were in any kind of relationship.</p><p><br /></p><blockquote><p>#10</p></blockquote><p><br /></p><p>Oh we're coming to an end! The last story was also about my friend's son. This friend was my housemate for a year. She works at <i>klinik kesihatan </i>nearby but did a two-month attachment in our hospital and together with another friend of us, we decided to move in together. It was the best decision ever. It feels good to live with someone who understands what were you doing day in day out and were single. She got married at the end of our one year of living together and then moves out to stay with her husband. The story was about her son playing in an inflatable pool. Honestly, an inflatable pool is a must for kids.</p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p></p><div style="text-align: center;"><iframe allowfullscreen="" class="giphy-embed" frameborder="0" height="480" src="https://giphy.com/embed/dzIaJmRNrHk3AwKlYi" width="480"></iframe></div><p style="text-align: center;"><a href="https://giphy.com/gifs/60secdocs-baby-weird-chill-dzIaJmRNrHk3AwKlYi">via GIPHY</a></p><p style="text-align: center;"><br /></p><p style="text-align: left;">That is it. I usually got bored with the stories. I scrolled through a few and then I'm done. Since it is arranged according to the newest published, I always missed those stories that I actually needed to see, such as the stories from my favorite coffee place here.</p>afifahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00769907212439354980noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2770913218415236738.post-68693588679456141502021-07-03T21:02:00.000+08:002021-07-03T21:02:48.749+08:00BMPIL Writing Challenge - Outfits To Work<p>My friend and I were told that there is an online meeting next week. I thought it was for all of us but apparently, our two other friends do not receive the invite. To make it more suspicious, we were both scheduled at different time which probably means it's going to be one on one meeting. There are a lot of things that I might or might not have done which can be mentioned in the meeting and honestly, I'm just overthinking this too much but damn I am so anxious.</p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjEqz_K1OyGWtGR97XhxeVBi34ydXTlwZuU9WCJoRjKEKmaEiusjn-jlVJGTPiwSnfILeieznHZgLUq92nPGojbMc73fLhWAvvBM4IMwuRfLysIwnvZyJCTLOSllYcdm1TwX7rWlSv1skDe/s2048/pexels-charlotte-may-5825571.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1365" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjEqz_K1OyGWtGR97XhxeVBi34ydXTlwZuU9WCJoRjKEKmaEiusjn-jlVJGTPiwSnfILeieznHZgLUq92nPGojbMc73fLhWAvvBM4IMwuRfLysIwnvZyJCTLOSllYcdm1TwX7rWlSv1skDe/w426-h640/pexels-charlotte-may-5825571.jpg" width="426" /></a></div><br /><p><br /></p><p>Here are the outfits and my dirty mirror.</p><p><br /></p><p>t/w - I'm not one to have the fanciest ootd</p><p><br /></p><blockquote><p>Outfit one</p></blockquote><br /><table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><tbody><tr><td style="text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjiqovsq_qBT1u9JkpB93EXEo6t1YRxVLUC-hjg_RFE1CBTDBpxj4zgQlAgvBHpnvRlYACMRJhPkqMTdvaFQ4eeIWFhIS-33MeasJlWGY6QNBVw1vBFlpHrPEbjdyGPmbXcIqCqeNrarNgr/s2048/IMG_20210624_102731.jpg" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjiqovsq_qBT1u9JkpB93EXEo6t1YRxVLUC-hjg_RFE1CBTDBpxj4zgQlAgvBHpnvRlYACMRJhPkqMTdvaFQ4eeIWFhIS-33MeasJlWGY6QNBVw1vBFlpHrPEbjdyGPmbXcIqCqeNrarNgr/s320/IMG_20210624_102731.jpg" /></a></td></tr><tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"><br /><br /></td></tr></tbody></table><br />There is actually a non-blurry version of this picture but this one is the only one that doesn't make me look like a pregnant woman and the less awkward. One would think my constant selfie with this mirror would make me pose better but it hasn't. Not for all these years. I don't wear this blouse quite often because I was too lazy to iron it as it is longer than my other blouse. I know that is not a legit reason but it is what it is. I only wore this as I actually send this with a bunch of other blouses to a laundry shop near my workplace to be ironed. Also, it is too hot for me to iron anything.<div><br /></div><div><br /></div><blockquote><div>Outfit #2</div></blockquote><p> </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgeBBKESZgI6pJxfs7_bf3Uw5uhQ_XUP9dRojhx7Cr-5R3WOoMLotKZPueq1TW7W8eZzuZZPhmHSMDJ8rURBnhAGQ86dzHxWFfC_Yor0ryz4T90QUXRPd23OvVf96gFuy13VU9x4N4BAdta/s2048/IMG_20210627_102523.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgeBBKESZgI6pJxfs7_bf3Uw5uhQ_XUP9dRojhx7Cr-5R3WOoMLotKZPueq1TW7W8eZzuZZPhmHSMDJ8rURBnhAGQ86dzHxWFfC_Yor0ryz4T90QUXRPd23OvVf96gFuy13VU9x4N4BAdta/s320/IMG_20210627_102523.jpg" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">This is my first time wearing this t-shirt to work. I rarely wore a t-shirt to work and the only time I did was when I was at my low and just don't feel like it. This was one of them. I was tired of moving out and still going to work. Plus, I just hate ironing. Anyway, I was positive that I can pull it off looking a bit more formal with that wide-leg pants but as you can see, it did not. I feel really off the whole day and swore not to wear that t-shirt to work again.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><blockquote><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Outfit #3</div></blockquote><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEijM1hf6HotRPdJR9gjk41sd3o6sxG0bb2AOYyHYrXqCqq44c75Je_kV13jwMlA-MmolR6OV73vz8jiuxClwEN9TDYO20dYswQ4PSvtO2r-iw67HXGux-iQy9EQsVusNTdYCB7OtcvWZP_W/s2048/IMG_20210702_073410.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEijM1hf6HotRPdJR9gjk41sd3o6sxG0bb2AOYyHYrXqCqq44c75Je_kV13jwMlA-MmolR6OV73vz8jiuxClwEN9TDYO20dYswQ4PSvtO2r-iw67HXGux-iQy9EQsVusNTdYCB7OtcvWZP_W/s320/IMG_20210702_073410.jpg" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><div style="text-align: left;">This was taken at my new place. The existence of this mirror in this new place plus no mess at the back marked that I have succeeded in moving all my stuff from my old place and unpacking most of it. I was actually running late as I tried to tidy up some stuff and lost track of the time. I was so glad to found this knitted sweater in the cupboard or else I will be so late needing to iron my blouse. I guess all those rushing and tidying is why my face made such an expression.</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">I am reveling in the fact that I don't have the compulsory <i>baju kurung </i>rules anymore. I made a point not to wear <i>baju kurung </i>for at least three months when I started working here. Also here's a picture of me being in love with my white blazer because I was annoyed with the flappy tail of the usual long white coat. I like how it gives me a stronger structure and less hospital-ish vibes.</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><tbody><tr><td style="text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiEI5N0FaBB7yr1hmJbYyklJK_xwPZSL09BDokHi2hCj87JJeMFACHQFUBs72pDz7xL5lhGTDncwWTDRKDarpskn2ScOegIHxvzxqMVbIhZLvTcSQz-q7bEpeNMusuBCcRcaLRzfTz8VYwJ/s2048/IMG_20210626_165939.jpg" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiEI5N0FaBB7yr1hmJbYyklJK_xwPZSL09BDokHi2hCj87JJeMFACHQFUBs72pDz7xL5lhGTDncwWTDRKDarpskn2ScOegIHxvzxqMVbIhZLvTcSQz-q7bEpeNMusuBCcRcaLRzfTz8VYwJ/s320/IMG_20210626_165939.jpg" /></a></td></tr><tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"></td></tr></tbody></table></div><br /><p> </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><p> I think there is only one take from this topic - I need to clean my mirror. </p><p><br /></p></div> <p></p>afifahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00769907212439354980noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2770913218415236738.post-6435692827999464592021-07-01T14:34:00.001+08:002021-07-01T14:43:16.612+08:00BMPIL Writing Challenge - Phone Check!I just realized I missed three days worth of topic instead of two. Anyway, I need one more outfit before updating that outfit topic so moving onto the next topic for today which is phone check.<div><br /></div><div><br /></div><blockquote>Wallpaper</blockquote><div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-kP47kKk_Ewg/YN1h6s0xP3I/AAAAAAAAWIw/5IrzozoN1zovvIr8BmbrJEN2mKc2fOsHwCNcBGAsYHQ/s1600/20210116_132439.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="640" src="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-kP47kKk_Ewg/YN1h6s0xP3I/AAAAAAAAWIw/5IrzozoN1zovvIr8BmbrJEN2mKc2fOsHwCNcBGAsYHQ/w480-h640/20210116_132439.jpg" title="" width="480" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">I always use a clean picture as wallpaper with hues of colour. My go to are usually pictures of the sky or the sea. My source is almost solely from pinterest but I found this one was on Twitter. I found it accidentally while scrolling through my TL and quickly set it as my wallpaper cause I love seeing that palm trees peeking through. I think it was somewhere in Hollywood? It was a nice change of colour from the usual blues and greens. I haven't change this for months already.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><blockquote style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Lockscreen</blockquote><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-NsJ3b2HwaEY/YN1h7QwAqGI/AAAAAAAAWI4/GygyptVsLIwx9D2FS2yrqMUZ9zKtwjjVwCNcBGAsYHQ/s1600/20210616_100308.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1366" height="640" src="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-NsJ3b2HwaEY/YN1h7QwAqGI/AAAAAAAAWI4/GygyptVsLIwx9D2FS2yrqMUZ9zKtwjjVwCNcBGAsYHQ/w426-h640/20210616_100308.jpg" width="426" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">I changes my lockscreen quite frequently. I don't pay notice to my wallpaper much as it will only last for two seconds and then I'm on the apps that I meant to open. But picking up my phone and seeing the black screen lights up with pretty pictures makes me happy. Per usual, I will choose any pretty pictures from Pinterest but recently I use more anime pictures. My current obsession is this artist that I found on Twitter (@zpsak). She don't have an Instagram account though. I always loves this kind of style and she makes it a lot more elegant and ethereal. Too bad that the characters she took a liking too and draws more frequently wasn't my favourite. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><blockquote style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Whatsapp Wallpaper</blockquote><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-IuF_3tXB2NE/YN1h8a0ZJnI/AAAAAAAAWJA/A6wRLtpsNcYO63PDd_C3GcYwWgUWa1YOgCNcBGAsYHQ/s1600/Screenshot_20210701-142551.png" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="864" height="640" src="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-IuF_3tXB2NE/YN1h8a0ZJnI/AAAAAAAAWJA/A6wRLtpsNcYO63PDd_C3GcYwWgUWa1YOgCNcBGAsYHQ/w360-h640/Screenshot_20210701-142551.png" width="360" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">I think I have this for years already. I don't have any copy of the picture too. Since I did daily back up of my Whatsapp, this picture will automatically be set at my wallpaper even when I change my phone. Thank god for that cause it was such a hassle searching a wallpaper that I like as my Whatsapp's wallpaper. I just love the strip of 🌈 and also the "oh shit" is a funny quirky touch.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">Ok that's it for today. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">By the way, I just notice, as in now, at 230pm, that today is not actually Friday? I have also worked for one week straight. However, since it's already July, I finally got my weekend off privilege back!</div><br /></div>afifahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00769907212439354980noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2770913218415236738.post-57059577528215584342021-07-01T00:23:00.003+08:002021-07-01T00:26:07.731+08:00BMPIL Writing Challenge - Fictional Character as CrushHelloooooooooooooo<div><br /></div><div>I have officially moved out of my old place and I'm feeling so happy right now. This place is better than the old ones in many kinds of sense, closer to my work and I am far more comfortable with the landlord even tho my landlord is a male.</div><div><br /></div><div>I'm not sure if he is the actual landlord or if he only manages the house.</div><div><br /></div><div>The best part is that this place isn't as hot as the old ones. I'm pretty sure the material used for the place is what affecting the heat so now I'm chilling comfortably and sleep even better. </div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj8GSq1YTTJIqApEu1MmSx23klnxQ4HLrQKoDnUQpRm3iCHh_PZQh7vRnfRxDBQSZL-zm0LRaRhgPIo9INjKeRxFe4TtFBFjCZPRDjOFLIZtovdn2a0ZrLAp7IVUPoSMMlw4pLTad4NYic3/s2048/pexels-jeffrey-czum-2439595.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1604" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj8GSq1YTTJIqApEu1MmSx23klnxQ4HLrQKoDnUQpRm3iCHh_PZQh7vRnfRxDBQSZL-zm0LRaRhgPIo9INjKeRxFe4TtFBFjCZPRDjOFLIZtovdn2a0ZrLAp7IVUPoSMMlw4pLTad4NYic3/w502-h640/pexels-jeffrey-czum-2439595.jpg" width="502" /></a></div><br /><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>Anyway, since I was busy moving out but still have to go to work, I decided to stop writing for a day. However, one day become two days as I completely forgot about it yesterday. </div><div><br /></div><div>The supposed topic for today was about my outfit to work but I only have one picture. I didn't get to take more pictures as my mirror was left in the old place. I took my pictures by taking a picture of my reflection onto my full-length mirror. So we're going to do the next topic instead which is fictional character crush.</div><div><br /></div><div>I'm having mixed feelings about this topic. It wasn't something that I feel comfortable enough to be more vocal about it especially when you live in Malaysia. But then I still put it in for that exact reason. I think it's a good challenge to write something that you aren't more comfortable about. </div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhybiMR4c-oj1b_p1d-b9F90HLiZVMEjXXjusTlAjO2jmv_2XUMXod7mRtaHLTSkcal5S60dVplBNIh61c17g1qx75Z78QAMZADdGp7gel62C6Afh0MaWxPsquu7w4c2RhVPPd-NFf1mPXw/s220/tenor.gif" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="124" data-original-width="220" height="226" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhybiMR4c-oj1b_p1d-b9F90HLiZVMEjXXjusTlAjO2jmv_2XUMXod7mRtaHLTSkcal5S60dVplBNIh61c17g1qx75Z78QAMZADdGp7gel62C6Afh0MaWxPsquu7w4c2RhVPPd-NFf1mPXw/w400-h226/tenor.gif" width="400" /></a></div><br /><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>Fictional characters came in a lot of forms. It can be from a book that you read, a tv series, a movie, a game, and my personal favourite - anime. If you read about my previous post, you'll see my interest in anime. </div><div><br /></div><div>I'm not the conventional biggest fan though. I consider myself an enthusiast but I still have to go to work and work makes you tired and I'm not one to sacrifice my sleep for anything. Not to mention my short attention span too. I can only watch at most three episodes of anime in one sitting but even that was rare. It was either the anime was so good so I can focus for three whole episodes or that I need to gain speed with the series because I keep forgetting to watch it. The thing is that I took anime as pleasure so I usually wait until I was really free and watch it as I chill.</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>I think my first legit crush was Jack Sparrow. It was my first experience in cinema too. I think it was the first one, The Cursed of Black Pearl. Then I learned how talented Johny Depp is and of course, having a crush on him too.</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>I watched plenty of anime during high school too. I didn't have any actual crush but I do remember thinking how some characters were so good looking and it confuses the heck out of me. How on earth a 2D character can be attractive. They weren't a real person? <br /></div><div><br /></div><div>However, since I started to watch anime again last two years, I started to acknowledge that I can actually have a crush on a 2D character. What's funny is that I started to be more open about this idea due to TikTok. </div><div><br /></div><div>Peoples on TikTok are more vocal with their passion. Since they have millions of users, any kind of passion always has their own community that in turn supported each other. That just helps them grow and having people supporting what you like is just the most positive thing. That positive environment allows me to judge my feelings well, and the conclusion is that I do have crushes on fictional characters. </div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>It was just another fictional character but this time within the anime world that includes drawing. Drawing is just another form of art. I realize that I do have crushes simply because the artists draw something beautiful. </div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>But personally, I think having fictional characters as crush is just a good safe place. That was why peoples get into it and there are a lot of factors that contribute to it. Probably thy environment of that character life, (this actually become one of the main reasons why many peoples want to go to Japan lol), or it can the way the characters live that just fit your personality. Also since it was meant as entertainment you can simply choose someone from something you like. For example, most of the anime characters that I like are usually from the fantasy genre. This makes sense because it is my favourite genre and I am currently having a crush on a character from a fantasy action anime. </div><div><br /></div><div>Fyi, my current crush in Nanami Kento from Jujutsu Kaisen. He looks so much like Mads Mikkelsen but younger which makes a lot of sense. Mads is hot, but he's too old.</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEghxrLjFvFRuyWQtlAiTHfVREyjrT34rqtLAqaUZbt4shboTR45O0N5aqhyphenhyphenYFoMUfzbvVqzuRp-h0yt81UK38l7w913NU4YfzG_cxhd05rQfQyngpah1e75NT6U6oNx8b-hAek_XxNFHKP0/s540/tumblr_b05f2b26c5c06a61af57590af5e5f824_8766a285_540.gif" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="404" data-original-width="540" height="299" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEghxrLjFvFRuyWQtlAiTHfVREyjrT34rqtLAqaUZbt4shboTR45O0N5aqhyphenhyphenYFoMUfzbvVqzuRp-h0yt81UK38l7w913NU4YfzG_cxhd05rQfQyngpah1e75NT6U6oNx8b-hAek_XxNFHKP0/w400-h299/tumblr_b05f2b26c5c06a61af57590af5e5f824_8766a285_540.gif" width="400" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><br />On the other hand, since I don't really like sports anime, I don't have any memory of actually having any of them as crushes. If I find anyone attractive it was usually preceded with me liking their personalities first. Like in Haikyuu, I usually only find the characters looks hot if there is some quirk in their personality that I like. </div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>There is something I learned about myself yesterday from a TikTok video saying that if I like these said characters, I might actually have a type in men. I'm not really sure if I have a type in men and what that type actually is but the funny thing is that almost all the characters mentioned were from a series I have seen so I know the characters. It baffles me because I do have this lingering feeling that I understand these characters even with how problematic they are and just like you're going to kinda stay in my mind and I will kinda still have a soft spot for you but sometimes you're just the definition of shitty. I can also confidently say that I don't have a crush on them too. When these characters were listed that way it just makes me really question myself so now apparently, I might have a thing for ENTP man.</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjXCeEG5Qj_Q7IZWXYd4MBNjDuXUZGRjGtJZXvzsqWPyUCbpRh0UQi55u-pDSCrrYv8mx5fmVN62yX5IWbnTaN-4P8f3KEHCtTqxed6njYyTGICWGxOyTC8VGYtgQVQNf7aLAip-i07BEqk/s1132/ENTP-Introduction.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1132" data-original-width="800" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjXCeEG5Qj_Q7IZWXYd4MBNjDuXUZGRjGtJZXvzsqWPyUCbpRh0UQi55u-pDSCrrYv8mx5fmVN62yX5IWbnTaN-4P8f3KEHCtTqxed6njYyTGICWGxOyTC8VGYtgQVQNf7aLAip-i07BEqk/s16000/ENTP-Introduction.jpg" /></a></div><br /><div><br /></div><div><br /></div>afifahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00769907212439354980noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2770913218415236738.post-84743943933463658312021-06-27T15:28:00.000+08:002021-06-27T15:28:18.723+08:00BMPIL Writing Challenge - My Current Morning DrinkI finally got the keys to my new place yesterday and today, my current landlord bring peoples for house viewing while I am still in the house. Did I told you that the peoples were male and that I wasn't informed anything about it. I keep having mixed emotions with her.<div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>Anyway, my morning drinks were variation of coffee. Sometime, probably once every two months, I won't feel like drinking coffee and make milo instead. I have cereal drinks as well. I only make a cereal drink if I feel like having some kind of food but I will still make a cup of coffee. Other than that, I usually only drink coffee for breakfast. It's not healthy folks. Just putting it out there.</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEihaoixmRzvYbE0Wjhc2gKi5kgfvmcyHd7ZrrRkECkb1ZhQJ0ia9Bw0zbTplsvVlI8Yo6Ia0HLSQwrnKexZW3fF9WQRc4H5r1pRK_4_fMpLst6hxWKHhy8U3gitW-NUE3cIWau_rtsnDRO-/s2048/pexels-daria-shevtsova-3597310.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEihaoixmRzvYbE0Wjhc2gKi5kgfvmcyHd7ZrrRkECkb1ZhQJ0ia9Bw0zbTplsvVlI8Yo6Ia0HLSQwrnKexZW3fF9WQRc4H5r1pRK_4_fMpLst6hxWKHhy8U3gitW-NUE3cIWau_rtsnDRO-/w480-h640/pexels-daria-shevtsova-3597310.jpg" width="480" /></a></div><br /><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>I used to only drink 3 in 1 coffee, specifically the IndoCafe ones, since my degree years. I don't like Nescafe. I feel like it is too aromatic as compared to its actual taste. IndoCafe have stronger caffeine and a whole lot cheaper so it easily became a daily drink. </div><div><br /><div><div><br /></div><div>However, I don't drink much 3 in 1 coffee nowaday. I somehow manage to build this hate toward the "instant" taste. Weird isn't it. But I still have Aik Cheong 3 in 1 coffee cause sometimes I do have sudden urge for 3 in 1 coffee. </div><div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>I do own a simple coffee machine but I hardly uses it. I only ever use it if I feel like drinking a good black coffee with sugar only. This is my excuse to splurged on a good finely grind coffee beans. There's a Jaya Grocer nearby that have a variety of coffee grind so I'm making it my mission to try as much as possible. My current grind is from Starbuck. The aroma is so good and I'm loving the sleek taste so much. I also notices recently that Speedmart started to have this exact type in stock. </div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>Other than that I just make one using instant coffer powder. Same like my coffee grind choices, I was going to try as much instant coffee brand at our Jaya Grocer here as well. My last brand was Davidoff. I was too lazy to go there when my Davidoff finishes so now I have a small packet of IndoCafe instead. I made this with either condensed milk or sugar. Sometimes I added creamer with the sugar. If I make my coffee using my coffee maker, it will be black with sugar only. </div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>However, recently, the most amazing thing happen with my coffee drinking habit. I was introduced to Frenché Roast instant coffee, specifically the cold latte ones. I drank this almost everyday. Creamy iced coffee in the morning is a true bliss. </div><div><br /></div><div><br /><div><div>I'm thinking of buying an espresso machine. But to do that, I need to somehow get rid of my current coffee machine. It was cheap so I don't feel like going the trouble to sell it. I probably can just give it to anyone but the problem is I can't meet anyone during PKP. I'll rethink about it once my craze for Frenché Roast ended.<br /></div></div></div></div></div></div>afifahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00769907212439354980noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2770913218415236738.post-31910975062589358442021-06-26T23:48:00.004+08:002021-07-09T21:39:07.477+08:00BMPIL Writing Challenge - How Last Night Went By The HourLet's get this written as simple as possible. If I'm ever going to finish this challenge, I need to be more straightforward and lessen the depth of my commentary. Since this challenge needs me to go by the, let's write it by hour then. I'll start from the moment I finish my work which is at 8pm. Pharmacy has to be closed by 8pm during PKP or else we'll close by 10pm.<div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhiYZ5VxDyRQEp8-vnBocCJt92DViEDYKfNW04rx6eW9D3L3uZ-v_8YjjjZPYFM5JOJIWCpRp-_6e4z7OSBN00CPe80DFy-1MBzIWlkbexbL2vthyMOF3UFHkT9YsMUnNKAEnpPWZ7DcA9Y/s2048/pexels-hars-seno-3206322.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1363" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhiYZ5VxDyRQEp8-vnBocCJt92DViEDYKfNW04rx6eW9D3L3uZ-v_8YjjjZPYFM5JOJIWCpRp-_6e4z7OSBN00CPe80DFy-1MBzIWlkbexbL2vthyMOF3UFHkT9YsMUnNKAEnpPWZ7DcA9Y/w426-h640/pexels-hars-seno-3206322.jpg" width="426" /></a></div><br /><div><br /><div><br /></div><div>8pm - This is the few times we actually managed to finish everything and clock-out exactly at 8pm. I drove back home and arrived around 825pm. </div><div><br /></div><div>830pm - I was so lazy these days. I simply lay on my bed scrolling through TikTok and Instagram </div><div><br /></div><div>Sometimes after 930pm - I started to feel a bit hungry. Since I went back early, I made a point to cook something for dinner. I usually cooked as soon as I got back but I got too lazy last night. I decided to start writing this challenge instead but on my phone. </div><div><br /></div><div>Sometimes after 11pm - I was decently hungry and went downstairs to cook some fries. I usually just need some small meal but still it wasn't good to eat that late. I took a quick shower I went to bed right away afterward without publishing the post. I wanted to do the final editing on my laptop and then publish it but it was getting too late and I decided to just do it tomorrow. </div><div><br /></div><div>1am - I can't sleep and keeps on scrolling things on my phone. I only get really sleepy around 1am. This is why I shouldn't eat that late.</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg-XyGgpz2ZU7zg8HDTK8NfkDTWftzTGjln1JMgLe-_CXUHp1bYka3o9XBbEmIgQ5G4ftaawFX1hAjDWRY2hpSuXgCPsBl3YKnRXw__QVPx1pQha_kPMzrt1D9M_AVod5qgdjqDCzZoMCID/" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="400" data-original-width="400" height="400" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg-XyGgpz2ZU7zg8HDTK8NfkDTWftzTGjln1JMgLe-_CXUHp1bYka3o9XBbEmIgQ5G4ftaawFX1hAjDWRY2hpSuXgCPsBl3YKnRXw__QVPx1pQha_kPMzrt1D9M_AVod5qgdjqDCzZoMCID/w400-h400/image.png" width="400" /></a></div><br /><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>Turns out that the magnesium supplement I was eating really does have grogginess as a side effect. That does make sense as I wasn't eating well for the longest time so my body probably in dire need of that magnesium. I tried to eat the supplement earlier and the grogginess lessens by the day. If you have trouble sleeping, why not give magnesium a try!</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>I also notice that my digestion went somewhat smoother in the morning even without my morning coffee. Turns out magnesium works in such a way too. </div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div></div>afifahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00769907212439354980noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2770913218415236738.post-582806931069867162021-06-26T13:35:00.004+08:002021-07-09T21:39:35.606+08:00BMPIL Writing Challenge - My Current Netflix Watching ListI think this writing challenge is really working out as I am more aware how days have passed. I'm on my fifth days already and this is such a fun topic to write. I'm a genius really coming out with this challenge.<div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>I hope there are more anime on Netflix. I love watching anime dearly. I started watching anime during highschool and stop watching much during my degree years and only recently pick it up about two years now. I got bored too easily with drama so the hypeness in anime really does wonder with my attention span. </div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjV6NeUgDhoTjI6r9zbJ6PvI8xqcxUgLx7ZJaHoF1OvC4m0G156aEJ05sAZcKmlyUFH0-fLWM6o7K04_XFosTguHQ4tudhs49GZ7pZjKck8ShxSe177xWkUy6PEpRdJzhTtyectM4JQebnR/s2048/pexels-cottonbro-5082582.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1365" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjV6NeUgDhoTjI6r9zbJ6PvI8xqcxUgLx7ZJaHoF1OvC4m0G156aEJ05sAZcKmlyUFH0-fLWM6o7K04_XFosTguHQ4tudhs49GZ7pZjKck8ShxSe177xWkUy6PEpRdJzhTtyectM4JQebnR/w426-h640/pexels-cottonbro-5082582.jpg" width="426" /></a></div><br /><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>Moreover, I am more of a supernatural and sci fi kind of person and anime just brings out the best out of this two genre. I also can't do any "slice of life" kinda of series anymore especially those with love arc. I do watch plenty of this kind of show, mainly k drama, during high school but now it just bores me. This then leaves me with such little choice of drama show. With this being said, my current list are almost all being anime. If I found any drama series that I liked, I usually just got so invested and finishes it quickly. The last series that I've finished on Netflix was Ragnarok. Others includes Stranger Things, Altered Carbon and Diableros. I tend to take forever to finish an anime series though. Apart from this, I just watch movies. </div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>I want to show a screenshot of my Netflix but it is not accurate at all. Most of my recommendation are k-dramas because my cousin uses my profile to watch those. I guess she watches it more frequently than me so each time I opened it, it usually shows her watching history instead of mine.</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>Ok, enough introduction, let's get into it!</div><div><br /></div><blockquote>Jujutsu Kaisen</blockquote><div><br /></div><div>I just have to start with this one. It was only recently been on Netflix and I had to pirate it previously. I always love a good supernatural anime and JJK just works so well especially since it is based on a more current timeline. I'm loving with their sorcerer and curses world and I totally lose it when one of the character says that his favourite actress was Jennifer Lawrence. It have a good background story that balances with the action part thus allows me to understand the characters better and then be all hyped up during action scenes and just be "yass, that's my guy!". The humour is so well done too and the characters were presented so well that I just love everyone even the bad guys. Bonus point there are a lot of hot characters!</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiRoPckbCm7Ps3LxfliTWRYjiOhgmOT3rP_1dIGHQRAqlZNzLT16kV-txIIOMgvt1kBPaVnLCW2LS8nT5JdMs_8W5L6psq5L2-LRziZf_L2COPFJy1jyNMViJbg19LNbpHx8qp6JJI2n5d9/" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="281" data-original-width="500" height="180" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiRoPckbCm7Ps3LxfliTWRYjiOhgmOT3rP_1dIGHQRAqlZNzLT16kV-txIIOMgvt1kBPaVnLCW2LS8nT5JdMs_8W5L6psq5L2-LRziZf_L2COPFJy1jyNMViJbg19LNbpHx8qp6JJI2n5d9/" width="320" /></a></div><br /><br /></div><div>I won't watch anime with funny looking characters like One Piece. I have this principle that is, if I'm giving an effort to watch any anime series, it might as well have lots of good looking characters.</div><div><br /></div><blockquote>Psycho Pass</blockquote><div><br /></div><div>I got interested in this since it have the same concept with this movie called Minority Report. That movie leaves such an impression on me but I never got around to actually watch this anime until this one TikTok video came on my For You Page. It just shows this scene where the main character looks all cool and super hot and I'm like this is the sign I've been waiting for.</div><div><br /></div><div>It has a good plot but a bit too serious for my liking so I don't really rush to finish it. But I still loving the sci fi setting and characters (albeit all being so uptight) so I'll definitely still finishes it.</div><div><br /></div><blockquote>Haikyuu!</blockquote><br /><div>I'm currently on my fourth season so I guess it was too late now to hold onto my principle to not watch any sports themed anime. I watch few sports themed anime during high school and when I pick up anime back this time around, I made a point not to watch this genre anymore. Firstly because it gets too technical-ish and secondly because I just think I have enough of this "this sports is my life and I'm going to give my everything to it" and then everyone become so sentimental about it while I keep on having this nagging voice inside me saying "it's just a ball". Plus, I hate the tense that came during a match lol.</div><div><br /></div><div>I only watch this because my sister was adamant that it is so good eventho I told her I'm done with sports anime. She told me that Haikyuu is different and honestly I shouldn't listen to her since she's still new in anime and her previous anime was according to my viewing history. </div><div><br /></div><div>Anyway, it wasn't bad per se. It was just not my thing anymore. It got good humor, really tense matches (not good for my heart at all) and by including many teams from other district into their storyline, it made it more interesting. I saw someone saying that the reason Haikyuu was so famous is because there's always a character for you. Being a simple high schooler made it more laid back and just lovable. </div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgvOXHXIlVeX7XTpPBtg-OcUR1cDvErBayEIEdjUWxoOW9AFp1OuOw5Cj7VSJxiE0t6cXx0Ngz1BCCgPES6ceN0RDwcjNmkh3yvVwbJa8cCGtdTHwrJuLtd4RsTbaYr-mOZ84SKrrhasLZ8/" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="1000" data-original-width="750" height="480" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgvOXHXIlVeX7XTpPBtg-OcUR1cDvErBayEIEdjUWxoOW9AFp1OuOw5Cj7VSJxiE0t6cXx0Ngz1BCCgPES6ceN0RDwcjNmkh3yvVwbJa8cCGtdTHwrJuLtd4RsTbaYr-mOZ84SKrrhasLZ8/" width="360" /></a></div><br /><br /></div><div>I was so done during the second season and decided not to continue it afterwards but it turns out that the entire third season was this important match with this team that was implied from earlier on during season one so now I just have to watch everything.</div><div><br /></div><blockquote>Devilman Crybaby</blockquote><div><br /></div><div>I watched this randomly with my sister. I like to spent my time at home watching and hyping over anime with her. I think we were all caught up with Attack On Titan and decided to watch any random anime. This was during the end of the second PKP. I didn't continue it afterwards and only decided to catch up last month. The reason I decided was that I needed a distraction from the secondhand embarrassment I was watching on Haikyuu. </div><div><br /></div><div>I don't like watching secondhand embarrassment in any kind of shows. This is why I don't watch Mr Bean. </div><div><br /></div><div>Devilman Crybaby animation was done by this studio called Science SARU. This isn't a more popular studio and they uses this hybrid of hand drawn and digital animation technique. Their animation style combined with the manga style is why I still remember to continue watching it. I'm not sure how to explain it but it's just interesting and it also made the whole story really more captivating.</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgtW-A4X5OpZtRZQeyM2k8TK5BdmPyeNPrRPh8jwpsdzKgusaWouMZpvSEV6vLsjOXt4hEhjWAdvv98eF2337P39kk4oOMTgnRrj2K6Jf6O3t5rra-TlfTNTDN7frQR7m279_vT8bIsk8Fs/" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="360" data-original-width="545" height="211" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgtW-A4X5OpZtRZQeyM2k8TK5BdmPyeNPrRPh8jwpsdzKgusaWouMZpvSEV6vLsjOXt4hEhjWAdvv98eF2337P39kk4oOMTgnRrj2K6Jf6O3t5rra-TlfTNTDN7frQR7m279_vT8bIsk8Fs/" width="320" /></a></div><br /><br /></div><div> </div><div>I'm also not sure how to explain the plot. It is a mashed of both supernatural as they play with the theme of the society getting sick and turning into evil demon and then the sci fi part are more on the gadgets used. The plot also have these pure characters that turns into demons, play around with graphic content that includes death, sex and drugs and then have one the main character being morally gray. The dark cinematography looming throughout the entire series is such a vibe too.</div><div><br /></div><blockquote>Vincenzo</blockquote><div><br /></div><div>There are so many type of k drama out there and I tried to watch some especially those that have supernatural themes but I still got bored as they will still includes all the "living a daily life" things. I mean I am a living person already, I don't need to watch how this powerful witch was all sad and misery because life has mistreated her.</div><div><br /></div><div>I got such high hopes with Hotel Del Luna.</div><div><br /></div><div>Anyway, I watched this series for three reasons.</div><div><br /></div><div>The first one being, I still need to watch more kdrama. I keep on feeling that not liking kdrama in general is such an uneducated opinion so I need more experience in it before continue to not liking it. Does that make sense? This is the very reason why I started to listen to BTS and ended up really liking them. I don't want to not like something for no valid reason. Furthermore, the choices for kdrama are becoming more variable so I was determine to try and find if I actually like anything.</div><div><br /></div><div>The second and third reason are more basic. The second one because the main character was Song Joong Ki. I don't watch korean drama but I do know Song Joong Ki were among the more popular ones so I wanted to see how he acts. I tried Descendants of The Sun but it just bores me. The third one because it was mafia themed. Knowing k drama always does a good job in the accuracy of potraying their theme, I was so curious to see how the mafia part was going to be done. The first few episodes was quite boring though but I still pull through until the main story arc started and it turns out to be fun. It feels good to have one kdrama that I actually like.</div><div><br /></div><div>I love how Vincenco does speak Italian, all those fancy suits which of course is important in mafia kind of shows, having fighting scene although it feels like a bit too try-hard to make Vincenzo look the coolest, all kind of family dynamics and the use of all the plaza residents characters in the storyline is just the most creative plot. </div><div><br /></div><div>I am still not as hyped as compared to watching my usual kind of drama series but I do want to finish it. Plus it is so fun to finally get to experience this unique quirkiness and humour that came with kdrama characters and the more professionally done product placement.</div><div><br /></div><div>But then I won't continue watching it if they have another season, which I know they won't. Thank god. </div><div><br /></div><div>That's it! I should do an alternate list where I told you guys about the shows that I started and I just gave up because it wasn't interesting. That would be fun.</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div>afifahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00769907212439354980noreply@blogger.com0