roll on : sabah bebeh!!!!!!!!!!.

Dec 27, 2011


check out the date and just want to say that i am actually safely happily and healthily home ( to kms lah ) from sabah, malaysia (yesterday at 10 pm something )

a litle cough..voice change which i never notice until may friend say so and homesick..very..

roll on : einstein love

Dec 16, 2011

to remember..or to apply back the knowledge you have studied (to answer and stuff ) is not hard..if it is just don't understand enough..

i got the tendency to hear loud music through my earphones..the beauty is..i cant hear nothing exceot for the song that plays..and i like it that way..especially when doing calculations..i dont know if it helps me to focus..but somehow..calculating seems fun that way..

my roommates always ask me to lower the volume..yup..if i sit near enough to them..they can actually hear the loudness of my earphone..though i dont think that it is that loud..

through my reading..this hearing damage happens when you are exposed for it for a long period of time..i always have those moment like temporary hearing problem after put off my is normal...i think i am still in good shape as i dont exposed my dear ear to this mechanism for a long period of time because this is actually the thing that people scary of..permanent hearing lost..

well..ear have their limits..just dont exceed that limit-lah

roll on : my way to express feeling

Dec 8, 2011


during queuing at the ATM machine, my friend was talking on the phone.. and after finish she was like,

"Pe'ah!! junior kita bunuh diri!"

 you got it right... i am still being called as pe'ah here.. =.=' not the issue..i am very frust with this suicide stuff..and it will be more frustrating if the cause of it is because he/she did not get excellent result in exam. The problem nowadays is..people think that we need to study hard..get excellent result and then you can keep on living..WRONG!!

as a muslim..we need to believe that rezeki is decided by Allah..and it not depend on good result..rezeki is everywhere..if you did not manage to get excellent just mean that it is not your rezeki..

i know this is easy to say but hard to do stuff.. but it is the real deal.. i have a hard time to be in this kind of faith..but..we just have to do that only you can move on..and be succeed,

Btw..who switch LEVERAGE for TENTANG DHIA ??


Dec 7, 2011

long time no see blog !!!

being 'offline' for quiet a time now..and it is totally worth it! i just got the result for PSPM 1 (fisrt sem exam)..and i am very thankful for the gift that Allah give me..alhamdulillah!!

studying in matriculation.. even though it is very fast.. and very busy.. and other very vary thing.. it actually not very bad and not something very harsh also as everyone here is the same.. and after a month or so.. it actually just a matter of suiting into a new lifestyle..

got a thing with blue roses

i like it here..i mean it..maybe mostly i like it for the safe feeling it gives me as i am afraid to go into university..i am scared i will not be able to adapt there or worst be change by the atmosphere..i always think stuff im gonna dressed up? who can i befriend with? my english is SUCKS! will i become timid?

but i will further my study to university after way of escaping..not even marrying a good and rich i want it! yup.. i am growing up..

because now i see that..nothing can stop me..and it as simple as..


roll : muslim on IC only

Sep 12, 2011

there is this sentence i read from a novel which means (because i don't really remember the real sentence) that one day we will be ashamed to confess that we are Muslims and the western will be running to study Islam because they know that secrets that lies behind it, like why Muslims do that and this, worths a lot! And yet, many Muslims (of course most Malaysian) and ashamed to admit that there are Muslims.

like the sayings (i don't remember who say it)  that one day there will be a lot of Muslims, million of it. But they will be like bubles on the sea. A lot but simply burst. Like their "iman".... it actually us now.

 Rasululullah S.A.W once pray for Allah that Muslims will always unite together. But Allah don't approve it. Why?

roll : i am sick..homesick..

Sep 5, 2011

if my friend are reading this..give me a shoulder to cry-lah...

miss my home,my room,my bed,my siblings,my dad and especially my mom...i've been away from KMS for two weeks and it feels like the very first time i came back here yesterday..VERY HOMESICK...

On last Saturday night, TV2 have Quantum Of Solace. Love the Aston Martins like damn much. Then i remembered that I want to bring the tikar that my mom have to KMS but i couldn't found it. My mom then asked me to bring the other tikar, the mengkuang one, it's too big. Hearing me say so, she asked me to bring the carpet and i complaint that it's too small. I notice my mom not feeling very good about it. Its too late to buy one also. I simply say "takpela mak" and eat those cornflakes madu that i make. It is very sweet but at that time i dont taste the sweetness. I went to my room and cried.

I know that at that time, I am very sad. I am leaving everything and everyone I love. And only Allah knows when will i got the chance to go home. I don't want to trouble my dad simply because a stupid homesickness. Though it is a very serious homesickness. I don't even found my will to study.




roll : selamat hari raya

Sep 3, 2011

the holiday is never forever....

its been a hectic raya..very hectic one as my auntie passed away on last Friday night.(dont condolence as it can only be done only on the day the person dies). we have been travel from kedah to perak like it is just a minute away.

how lucky she is to passed away on friday night..althought it is the fourth day of raya..i dont cry at all as i am not very close to her..but my tears drop seeing her child started to cry..

i dont study at all during the holiday..

roll : about Ramadhan......................

Aug 27, 2011

its leaving us.....

I dont like it very much, to terawih at surau near my house as many children will be playing mercun. loud and shocking.

during terawih or any solat jemaah, one thing bothers me very much. about the saf.

sometimes it is loosely arranged and not straight.. children will be out and in to the saf like it was nothing. most annoying part is. i dont do anything about. i dont know what to do. the children will be too small too understand me and the elders will be too old for me to tell them whats right and whats wrong. OK. i am giving excuses, i dont have the confidence......

saf need to started from the center and be balance on both side. if you have started your pray and there is gap between you and person besides you, you can take one steps at time to get near to that person. it is limits to three steps only. when you found a big gap in the saf in front of you quickly fill it in. Rasulullah once make a straight line using his sword as an indicatot so that a straight saf is reached.

check this out to learn more about saf. its never too late to learn and it is never a nothing thing too learn.


first case :

there is this one guy which my friend have some sort of stupid crush to him. kinda cute btw. she will drag me to watch this guys playing futbal (like i have nothing better to do) i accompanied her. many time. but i am actually care-less about that guy.

one day. we bumped into that guy at the library. and i notice that the watch that guy wore is something like my sister ask me to find it for her.. so i am like..

"jam kau jenama apa?"
"owh. sorry.. salah jam"

my friend never talk to that guy.  but she manage to get his phone number. she found that guy fb and i "add" him. i post it to him.

"jam casio rite?"

its suppose to be something like..

"eh..terjumpa pulak"

copy that? but then somehow he deleted it. i tell my friend about it and she tell me that guy blocked her.

i think he think that we are STALKER. damn it.


second case:

i text to this guy. asking that and this. and he actually not really know me.. so i make it clear to him who am i. and he replied me..

"owh..yeke?? k, sy mintak diri dulu..aslmkum"

whats with the double question marks and sudden go?

third case :

my most beloved boyfriend dont topup. no money-lah. annoying.. =.='


Aug 25, 2011














roll : I DONT KNOW

i dont know why i want to start this post with "i dont know"

2 weeks holidays is just like when i have finished SPM. Sleep and eat and being everyone PERSONAL ASSISTANT. With weather like now (raining every time) it is no fun to be riding motorcycle. I dont have the courage to be driving a car. Not to mention father's cars is BIG (unser and storm) and remembering him nagging non stop about HOW TO DRIVE is enough to get me off the wheel..

i've been sleeping a head hurts..headache lah..

i've been downloading and playing games..and of course helping my mom with all the chores (well..maybe not all)..and i am not on earth you are going to get 4flat afifah?

call me crazy or geek..but..studying is fun..i get to enjoy it very much when i have the ability to manipulate the knowledge i have to answer questions..and that requires a thorough understanding..hmmm..

dont easily discouraged when fails..and dont be like telling everyone about it..but if that what consoling you..then go ahead..but i seriously dot like doing such thing..i dont like the feeling when too many people symphatize me..i love to tell closest friend of me..

roll : bila hijab dan populariti mixed

Aug 21, 2011

i never like to be on this topic.....

2 bulan di KMS..lama gila tak online tengok dunia blogging..aku jadi semacam mual pulak..especially to this topic...


sekarang..bermacam jenis fashion kita tengok..some nice..some annoys..some just simply *tak terkata*

but aku just nak sentuh isu tentang hijab fashion..aku tak pernah against such a long menutup aurat it is not a big deal lah..dulu-dulu..time hijab still NEW..amatlah sweet melihatkan sang HIJABian with pashmina,georgette,whatsoeva semua...semua nak ikot join...tudung is no more lame..its a good thing..membawa kaedah menutup aurat ke satu dimension yg baru di mana..SEDAP MATA MEMANDANG AND TAK KOLOT DIPANDANG..



fashion ni sekarang dah jadi semacam tak betol..ramai yg berhijab semata nak tutup rambut..then yg laen dilupakan..


rambut tak payah sanggul tinggi sangat
seluar tak payah ketat sangat
baju tak payah jarang sangat
mulut tak payah cabul sangat
perangai tak payah gedik sangat

PERANGAI la aku sangat-sangat takotkan..ramai hijabers yg popular sekarang ni..sbb popular tu aku malas nak la why aku nyampah nak talk pasal ni..sbb aku taw nanti ada je yg kata aku ni saja jeles..

oooohhh!! please..

aku just tak lalu..rasa mcm agama ISLAM dipermaenkan..

tolong berhijab dan jadi role model yg baek...jgn la tunjuk perkara korang yg tak elok tu sbb korang dipandang org...tahu korang nak tunjuk diri korang yg sebenar..but sometimes..let it hidden...for the sake of others innocent people..

setengah org...jatidiri diorang amat lemah..yg maa role mereka buat..itu yg betul bg mereka..

BAYANGKAN..bila si polan ni ada haters..dia pon pulun dok cerita hate haters ni, in my opinion..tak perlu..bila buat mcm ni..semacam menanam ideologi..KITA KENA CROSSPANGKAHHABISHABIS haters.ISLAM tak suruh kita benci each other,

tolongla..kita bersaudara...saling mengingatkan dgn hemah..bkn sindiran..