Little old me

Oct 19, 2012

So here I am. Going to mumble. Mumbling. How am I mumbling through words?

Yeah. Now I am studying at UKM KAMPUS KL in Pharmacy. *winkwink*

And now I am taking all possible chances to involve in universiti, residential college or faculty program to gain the experience of organizing an event and become the one in charge. It is tense. Time and energy consuming yet I am still a student that need to study to pass with plying colours in exam. Badly. Hate to fail actually.

Although I am having all these drama for all those program, I still love it. The satisfaction is awesome. The urge to become better mounting. Yet, I can never let my study to be left untouched. I am still a student.

This is why I am writing now. I am scared and sad and tensed. Mid sem exam is only a week time yet I am still not prepare. It's like I didnt study a thing at all. I'm in a big conflict. Between to go through my previous lecture and just focus on certain thing or study like crazy to get a full understanding. Full understanding requires me to go through word by word, page to page, book through book. I love it that way. It give me the feeling of empower over the subject. But I have no time. NONE.

The lecture was very quick including thousand of topic and very little explanation. It was never like before at matriculation and I am scared. I am not suppose to complaint. I hate it. But somehow I have developed this kind of attitude and badly want to throw it away. It give me nothing but just more confusing heartbreaking time of my life.

This post become lost. Point to point without good sentence structure. This is how pretty much the way my heart and brain are.

But somehow, deep in my heart I still have that optimist thingy that I am going to rock this.

I will stop complaining and focus on to fix my problem.

To stop being tense and scared and start becoming more discipline in organizing my life.

To never give up and keep on moving.

It is never too late.

Rasullullah PBUH have said, that if tomorrow if the apocalypse but you still have seed to grow. Just do it. Rasullullah PBUH never teach us that it is too late.

You say: "It's impossible"

 Allah says: All things are possible 

You say: "I'm too tired"
Allah says: I will give you rest 

You say : "I can't go on"
Allah says: My grace is sufficient

You say: "I can't figure things out"
Allah says: I will direct your steps

You say: "I can't do it"
Allah says: You can do all things

You say: "I'm not able"
Allah says: I am able

You say: "I can't forgive myself"
Allah says: I FORGIVE YOU

You say: "I can't manage"
Allah says: I will supply all your needs

You say: "I'm afraid"
Allah says: I have not given you a spirit of fear

You say: "I'm always worried and frustrated"
Allah says: Cast all your cares on ME

You say: "I don't have enough faith"
Allah says: I've given everyone a measure of faith

You say: "I'm not smart enough"
Allah says: I give you wisdom

You say: "I feel all alone"
Allah says: I will never leave you or forsake you

You say: "Nobody really loves me"
Allah says: I love you

Subhanallah. Alhamdulillah. Allah hu akbar.


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