Roll On: Hold me.

I've been betrayed. By those I love. It was tough. I do get passed it. I always do. But, even though time has numb the pain, I never really healed.

I've been scarred for life.

I think ones never really does feel betrayed if it's not from the ones you love. How fucked up is that huh?

The there is pain. The pain is excruciating and it left these holes. I don't know how to fill it. I don't know what to do with it. I don't trust anyone with it. I don't think no one can ever understand it.

I can't understand it either.

This despair that don't seem to end.
This stupid hope that was too hopeful.
This loneliness that just kills
This weakness of me that I can't breach it.

I want to be stronger. Not to be affected. Swaying life like a good strong soldier.

It does made me stronger isn't it? I am strong.

But sometimes, just sometime, this scar could bleed. I might as well be betrayed again. It scares me.

Can you understand that I can't be doing this again. No matter how strong i am i just can't.